In a blink of an eye, a month has passed.
I've accomplished nothing to this date and
the thought of it is quite dissatisfying.
27.12.08
21.12.08
DAD FINALLY SAID YES TO LETTING XIN NI HAVE THE DOG! WOHOOOO!
THANK GOD FOR THAT !!!!! =] but not forgetting all that convincing and conning him with the jap dinner to ease the mood too contributed to the good ending!=P phew*
AHHHHH IM SoOO HAPPY! CANT WAIT TILL WE GET THE DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok well its 1.22 am and i wana say Happy 1 year and 10 months to ben =P
[see i told you i would write something abt u if u checked it everyday, faithfully~]
haha but its only going to be so little coz i already wrote you an email. so check ur emaillll!!
TOday was such an awesome day.
i Tanned [ got the worst tan line on my arm by accident =__= but it was still good for the rest of the body].
Did some reading... [ stupid 1984 by george orwell is completely and utterly unreadable with at least 1 complicated word every 4 or 5 words T__T ARGHHH leaving me with no choice but to google define almost every 5th word!]
And worked with dad in the garden! [it was kind of nice to help out in the garden and spend some time with dad. Afterall i'll prob be so busy in the coming year that i won't have much time for him.]
Finally went for a meal at "SAKATA" its the COOLEST PLACE i've been to in the last few months [for dinner that is]! its a jap restaurant with tepanyaki grill and mannn the showmanship there was soo good! the chefs cooked our food infront of us and played the food catching game with us too! it was good fun! too bad dad mum and xinni didnt want to do it. but i did ! =P decided i had to make it worth the money i was paying haha =P Mannn i wana have my next year's birthday there with just my close friends. that would be the bestttt most ideal place. unfortunately its all the way on burwood hwy at the K-Mart plaza and transport would prob be the 2nd biggest problem after cost.
Well that was my day and now im off to sleep.
Laters all! =P
THANK GOD FOR THAT !!!!! =] but not forgetting all that convincing and conning him with the jap dinner to ease the mood too contributed to the good ending!=P phew*
AHHHHH IM SoOO HAPPY! CANT WAIT TILL WE GET THE DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok well its 1.22 am and i wana say Happy 1 year and 10 months to ben =P
[see i told you i would write something abt u if u checked it everyday, faithfully~]
haha but its only going to be so little coz i already wrote you an email. so check ur emaillll!!
TOday was such an awesome day.
i Tanned [ got the worst tan line on my arm by accident =__= but it was still good for the rest of the body].
Did some reading... [ stupid 1984 by george orwell is completely and utterly unreadable with at least 1 complicated word every 4 or 5 words T__T ARGHHH leaving me with no choice but to google define almost every 5th word!]
And worked with dad in the garden! [it was kind of nice to help out in the garden and spend some time with dad. Afterall i'll prob be so busy in the coming year that i won't have much time for him.]
Finally went for a meal at "SAKATA" its the COOLEST PLACE i've been to in the last few months [for dinner that is]! its a jap restaurant with tepanyaki grill and mannn the showmanship there was soo good! the chefs cooked our food infront of us and played the food catching game with us too! it was good fun! too bad dad mum and xinni didnt want to do it. but i did ! =P decided i had to make it worth the money i was paying haha =P Mannn i wana have my next year's birthday there with just my close friends. that would be the bestttt most ideal place. unfortunately its all the way on burwood hwy at the K-Mart plaza and transport would prob be the 2nd biggest problem after cost.
Well that was my day and now im off to sleep.
Laters all! =P
16.12.08
Heavy clouds. A gloomy sky. Looking like its about to rain any moment, though it's been like that for the whole day. I haven't done much. My efficiency level on days as such is pretty much close to zero. The absence of sunshine makes my body lethargic and tired. It seems like its time to sleep even though its daytime not night. Has the summer gone by? Wheres the sunshine i'd been waiting for? Lucky for me though, i found a song to turn my day around, turn my frown to a smile and my gloomy day brighter.
Anyways...
Just wanted to give a shout out to all those people out there who absolutely adore old school songs!
Heres one that can turn a frown into a smile. So get the song, listen to it and smile away.
Anyways...
Just wanted to give a shout out to all those people out there who absolutely adore old school songs!
Heres one that can turn a frown into a smile. So get the song, listen to it and smile away.
| Bryan Adams Summer of '69 from Reckless 1984 |
I got my first real six-string
Bought it at the five-and-dime
Played it till my fingers bled
It was the summer of '69
Me and some guys from school
Had a band and we tried real hard
Jimmy quit and Jody got married
I shoulda known we'd never get far
Oh when I look back now
That summer seemed to last forever
And if I had the choice
Ya - I'd always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life
Ain't no use in complainin'
When you got a job to do
Spent my evenin's down at the drive-in
And that's when I met you
Standin' on your mama's porch
You told me that you'd wait forever
Oh and when you held my hand
I knew that it was now or never
Those were the best days of my life
Back in the summer of '69
Man we were killin' time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothin' can last forever - forever, no
And now the times are changin'
Look at everything that's come and gone
Sometimes when I play that old six-string
I think about ya wonder what went wrong
Standin' on your mama's porch
You told me it would last forever
Oh the way you held my hand
I knew that it was now or never
Those were the best days of my life
Back in the summer of '69
Bought it at the five-and-dime
Played it till my fingers bled
It was the summer of '69
Me and some guys from school
Had a band and we tried real hard
Jimmy quit and Jody got married
I shoulda known we'd never get far
Oh when I look back now
That summer seemed to last forever
And if I had the choice
Ya - I'd always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life
Ain't no use in complainin'
When you got a job to do
Spent my evenin's down at the drive-in
And that's when I met you
Standin' on your mama's porch
You told me that you'd wait forever
Oh and when you held my hand
I knew that it was now or never
Those were the best days of my life
Back in the summer of '69
Man we were killin' time
We were young and restless
We needed to unwind
I guess nothin' can last forever - forever, no
And now the times are changin'
Look at everything that's come and gone
Sometimes when I play that old six-string
I think about ya wonder what went wrong
Standin' on your mama's porch
You told me it would last forever
Oh the way you held my hand
I knew that it was now or never
Those were the best days of my life
Back in the summer of '69
15.12.08
It was no doubt an exciting head start to the week.
YEsterday Kawaii ben and i hit the city just past noon, in search of ARMY / Military clothes to dress up for the BIG BIG BIG EVENT -> the grill'd xmas party! =]
Not knowing if we would find anything, we simply combed almost every possible store from bourke st to elizabeth st to melbourne central to lt bourke st and the list goes on!
Finally by about 4pm we got the things we needed to become the "army" of grill'd and headed back to melb central where we met elias and nathan. Had subway, filled our tummies [ well the other 3 didnt really =___= they had drinks and an apple pie for dinner] then we headed out to meet daniel? i think thats his name... we tried to train to flinders but ended up making 2 rounds up and down the 2 levels of the melb central station and exited to take a safer and easier route~ the tram. We followed MR PRoctor's extremely detailed directions that took up half a piece of A4 paper LOL and headed to the ARMY SITE! [ well the hall in which the party was held. but i'll call it the ARMy site for now] anyways we got lost along the way even with these detailed directions, which goes to show how bad guys are at directions =P jks jks. Though we did end up in the right place after much walking around the blocks and trying to figure out which one was coppin hall when we begin with it right infront of us. yep =__= and im pretty sure none of us were high or drunk at the point ....
Well on with it. The party was a blast! everyone was shouting screaming and i was drenched with beer, vodka, cruisers, champaign, water... and who noes what else ! it was much fun! Everyone was high, jumping and dancing and singing to the songs! the party was SICK ASS!
Niweas here are some photos but more will come and more will be on facebook =P so stick around guys!
SAnta a supporter of the army ? 0.o???? [LOL @ MICK]
YEsterday Kawaii ben and i hit the city just past noon, in search of ARMY / Military clothes to dress up for the BIG BIG BIG EVENT -> the grill'd xmas party! =]
Not knowing if we would find anything, we simply combed almost every possible store from bourke st to elizabeth st to melbourne central to lt bourke st and the list goes on!
Finally by about 4pm we got the things we needed to become the "army" of grill'd and headed back to melb central where we met elias and nathan. Had subway, filled our tummies [ well the other 3 didnt really =___= they had drinks and an apple pie for dinner] then we headed out to meet daniel? i think thats his name... we tried to train to flinders but ended up making 2 rounds up and down the 2 levels of the melb central station and exited to take a safer and easier route~ the tram. We followed MR PRoctor's extremely detailed directions that took up half a piece of A4 paper LOL and headed to the ARMY SITE! [ well the hall in which the party was held. but i'll call it the ARMy site for now] anyways we got lost along the way even with these detailed directions, which goes to show how bad guys are at directions =P jks jks. Though we did end up in the right place after much walking around the blocks and trying to figure out which one was coppin hall when we begin with it right infront of us. yep =__= and im pretty sure none of us were high or drunk at the point ....
Well on with it. The party was a blast! everyone was shouting screaming and i was drenched with beer, vodka, cruisers, champaign, water... and who noes what else ! it was much fun! Everyone was high, jumping and dancing and singing to the songs! the party was SICK ASS!
Niweas here are some photos but more will come and more will be on facebook =P so stick around guys!
SAnta a supporter of the army ? 0.o???? [LOL @ MICK]
10.12.08
its time.
Hey all!
Im bak again from a long and tiring morning in Nunawading desperately trying to find something nice and worthwhile to sleep on. Well i found nothing again. It was a disappointing trip and i am almost about to give up. I've been to almost all the places that could possibly sell a range of bedroom furniture but nothing seems to be just the right price and style. Its either too expensive or completely not the contemporary design i had wanted, in which case i don't plan on comprising on the style since im going to have to live with it and sleep on it for the next 10 years at least.
And thats not all. Guess whats more depressing. Ben's going back to Singapore today =[ and my bffl and smfl is not going to be around anymore to accompany me on a full day's worth of shopping or whatever it is that i want to do. Hmmm the only consolation to this whole thing is that i get to send him off to the airport [ although that would only last as long as the car trip as dad cbb paying for the parking there so i really hope we get stuck in a humongous traffic jam somewhere along the way, which will buy me some more time...] And this consolation prize was awarded to me with TONNES of thanks to Ben wong since he is SO AWESOME and decided to take my shift for me so that i could make it for the car ride to the airport. Oh wait... actually there is one more good side to it, it's that at least i won't be put in the position- standing at the departure gate- having to see my bffl+smfl go. Coz for me, i always cry when someone i send off goes through the departure gate. So i guess i won't be putting myself in a position where i would have tears on the edge my eyes about to roll off any moment. =]
Wells im going to have to go soon.
It's 1.37 pm and im about 10 minutes away from leaving for his house to pick him and his family up. Hopefully i don't show any emotion until im back home since the last thing i want is for my dad to be all sus at me for being sad.
Anyways im planning on jogging later on in the afternoon =P get some fresh air and start my holiday plans since most ppl are gone now.
So cya guys around !
P.s. Bryan just wanted to tell u that: HOPE U've been having a BLAST over there enjoying all the one nighters =] *raises eyebrows up and down* hehehehe
Im bak again from a long and tiring morning in Nunawading desperately trying to find something nice and worthwhile to sleep on. Well i found nothing again. It was a disappointing trip and i am almost about to give up. I've been to almost all the places that could possibly sell a range of bedroom furniture but nothing seems to be just the right price and style. Its either too expensive or completely not the contemporary design i had wanted, in which case i don't plan on comprising on the style since im going to have to live with it and sleep on it for the next 10 years at least.
And thats not all. Guess whats more depressing. Ben's going back to Singapore today =[ and my bffl and smfl is not going to be around anymore to accompany me on a full day's worth of shopping or whatever it is that i want to do. Hmmm the only consolation to this whole thing is that i get to send him off to the airport [ although that would only last as long as the car trip as dad cbb paying for the parking there so i really hope we get stuck in a humongous traffic jam somewhere along the way, which will buy me some more time...] And this consolation prize was awarded to me with TONNES of thanks to Ben wong since he is SO AWESOME and decided to take my shift for me so that i could make it for the car ride to the airport. Oh wait... actually there is one more good side to it, it's that at least i won't be put in the position- standing at the departure gate- having to see my bffl+smfl go. Coz for me, i always cry when someone i send off goes through the departure gate. So i guess i won't be putting myself in a position where i would have tears on the edge my eyes about to roll off any moment. =]
Wells im going to have to go soon.
It's 1.37 pm and im about 10 minutes away from leaving for his house to pick him and his family up. Hopefully i don't show any emotion until im back home since the last thing i want is for my dad to be all sus at me for being sad.
Anyways im planning on jogging later on in the afternoon =P get some fresh air and start my holiday plans since most ppl are gone now.
So cya guys around !
P.s. Bryan just wanted to tell u that: HOPE U've been having a BLAST over there enjoying all the one nighters =] *raises eyebrows up and down* hehehehe
9.12.08
Like the previous post guys? stay tuned for the special guest's return visit soon-ish =P as soon as i can get hold of her on her busy schedule again!
Anyways
The day began in chaddy as me and cherry walked the shops and made the bens try on the funniest clothes ever =P
YEpp THATS SOME HOT AS GAY CLOTHES ~ well more lyk as cherry calls them the "GAY CLOTHES co. " wad an awesome BRAND - right cherry?
hahaha anyways we laughed our assess and then headed in to the COOLEST PLACE ON PLANET EARTH - TOYS R US! for those of u who have NEver been there... what a shame!
In there we found this really cool speaker recorded voice mutilator thingy and ended up playing with it for quite some time.... =P it was quite an entertainer i must say.
But all in all the day was awesome! and EVERYONE SHLD GO TO TOYS R US AND CHECK IT OUT! WHEEEEEEEEEEEe
alrite im out for now =]
be bak soon !
Anyways
The day began in chaddy as me and cherry walked the shops and made the bens try on the funniest clothes ever =P
YEpp THATS SOME HOT AS GAY CLOTHES ~ well more lyk as cherry calls them the "GAY CLOTHES co. " wad an awesome BRAND - right cherry?
hahaha anyways we laughed our assess and then headed in to the COOLEST PLACE ON PLANET EARTH - TOYS R US! for those of u who have NEver been there... what a shame!
In there we found this really cool speaker recorded voice mutilator thingy and ended up playing with it for quite some time.... =P it was quite an entertainer i must say.
But all in all the day was awesome! and EVERYONE SHLD GO TO TOYS R US AND CHECK IT OUT! WHEEEEEEEEEEEe
alrite im out for now =]
be bak soon !
hey guys and girlies,
Nelly Yuki here hacking into "stacey's" page and making a post.
dont know who i am? well thats besides the point.. im here to tell you about my night. So here i was happily msning away on msn talking to my favorite people (btw some people were missing) and deciding to log into myspace. dont know what myspace is? google it. anyways my mood at this point was slightly emo-ish but i was happy at the same time. back to the point, i logged on myspace and posted a bulletin, (which the contents of that bulletin will not be disclosed here) hoping that people wouldnt read it seeing as no one reads those things anyways. i was so wrong. this guy, lets call him Mr X for saftey purposes, read the bulletin. He was the last person that i thought would read it and i certainly did NOT want him to read it. why? who knows. wasnt even about him? but i still feel something.. dont know wat but its definately there.. and let me tell you this isnt a happy feeling so save it. anywho Mr X happens to ruin my evenings by talking to me, just when i thought it would be a good night. Btw, i have no feelings for Mr X at all and i can assure you 100% there is nothing there.
ill keep you posted on how Mr X continues to confuse me, if you have any questions to ask me? ill be more than happy to answer especially if you dont get what i wrote (:
love ny
xoxo
Nelly Yuki here hacking into "stacey's" page and making a post.
dont know who i am? well thats besides the point.. im here to tell you about my night. So here i was happily msning away on msn talking to my favorite people (btw some people were missing) and deciding to log into myspace. dont know what myspace is? google it. anyways my mood at this point was slightly emo-ish but i was happy at the same time. back to the point, i logged on myspace and posted a bulletin, (which the contents of that bulletin will not be disclosed here) hoping that people wouldnt read it seeing as no one reads those things anyways. i was so wrong. this guy, lets call him Mr X for saftey purposes, read the bulletin. He was the last person that i thought would read it and i certainly did NOT want him to read it. why? who knows. wasnt even about him? but i still feel something.. dont know wat but its definately there.. and let me tell you this isnt a happy feeling so save it. anywho Mr X happens to ruin my evenings by talking to me, just when i thought it would be a good night. Btw, i have no feelings for Mr X at all and i can assure you 100% there is nothing there.
ill keep you posted on how Mr X continues to confuse me, if you have any questions to ask me? ill be more than happy to answer especially if you dont get what i wrote (:
love ny
xoxo
7.12.08
Its already 1/4 way into the holidays and i have barely done anything for myself =__= i think its about time i start planning for the holidays =P Hence this is my goal setting post for the summer holidays!
The list begins :
1] Must renovate my room and recreate a NEW room for myself that i will be comfortable with in the long run, well mostly for my year 12 since i must be able to sleep well and study well in my room.
2]Must make my photo collage and find a canvas to deco my room with. Preferably a large rectangle canvas so that i can place it above my new bed-to-be head.
3]Must finish reading TWILIGHT before tan tan comes back
4]Must finish my holiday homework for Specialist, methods and Eng
5]Must be well prepared for English tuition- commencing the 11th of FEb -9pm
6]Must finish all chink tuition hw from the last lesson before the 30th of Dec
7]Must exercise everyday for at least an hour.
8]Must get a tan =__= [ well thats IF i can tan... since my skin is practically white=__= but of course i don't want to be as black as bryan yong hoeeeee =P ]
9]Must meet jess la on her birthday =]
hmmm thats it for now i guess..
Oh look... i've got a visitor from singapore at my door step. I'll leave it here for now =] be back soon with more of my list to comeeee [ when i think of them ! ]
The list begins :
1] Must renovate my room and recreate a NEW room for myself that i will be comfortable with in the long run, well mostly for my year 12 since i must be able to sleep well and study well in my room.
2]Must make my photo collage and find a canvas to deco my room with. Preferably a large rectangle canvas so that i can place it above my new bed-to-be head.
3]Must finish reading TWILIGHT before tan tan comes back
4]Must finish my holiday homework for Specialist, methods and Eng
5]Must be well prepared for English tuition- commencing the 11th of FEb -9pm
6]Must finish all chink tuition hw from the last lesson before the 30th of Dec
7]Must exercise everyday for at least an hour.
8]Must get a tan =__= [ well thats IF i can tan... since my skin is practically white=__= but of course i don't want to be as black as bryan yong hoeeeee =P ]
9]Must meet jess la on her birthday =]
hmmm thats it for now i guess..
Oh look... i've got a visitor from singapore at my door step. I'll leave it here for now =] be back soon with more of my list to comeeee [ when i think of them ! ]
4.12.08
~9.43 am~
Goood morning all! Its another bright and sunny day in Melbourne. Well thats for now, im guessing, since there no clouds hanging over me atm. But then again lets not forget that melbourne is known for having 4 seasons in a day.
Anyway im currently on my way to DFO and yes one may wonder WHAT ON EARTH am i doing up so early making my way all the way to ESSENDON DFO. Hmmm truth is i dont know either! Well i guess its partly due to the fact that im overly excited by the prospect of FINALLY getting a new bed frame as well as a new set of furniture to go with the suite. Hopefully something nice is waiting for me at the end of this long 30 min drive that is killing me because i cant wait to browse around and jump into the perfect bed for me!
~11.21pm~
im back with much disappointment. I mean the full english breakfast at DFO was no doubt satisfying but the fact that after going all the way to Essendon, i came back with NOTHING =[
no bed no frame no furniture. Its saddening.
To top it off, we even drove all the way to Nunawading just to take a look at forty winks. And after finally seeing something AWESOMELY PERFECT AND TOTALLY WORTH ITS PRICE....the measurements were simply TOO BIG FOR MY ROOM!
BOOOOOO at all the bed frame manufacturers for making such big Queen size frames with such huge bed side tables and such bulky tall boys =[ !!!!!!!
niweas today was pretty tiring running all over melbourne so i think im going to turn in now.
LAterz all
Goood morning all! Its another bright and sunny day in Melbourne. Well thats for now, im guessing, since there no clouds hanging over me atm. But then again lets not forget that melbourne is known for having 4 seasons in a day.
Anyway im currently on my way to DFO and yes one may wonder WHAT ON EARTH am i doing up so early making my way all the way to ESSENDON DFO. Hmmm truth is i dont know either! Well i guess its partly due to the fact that im overly excited by the prospect of FINALLY getting a new bed frame as well as a new set of furniture to go with the suite. Hopefully something nice is waiting for me at the end of this long 30 min drive that is killing me because i cant wait to browse around and jump into the perfect bed for me!
~11.21pm~
im back with much disappointment. I mean the full english breakfast at DFO was no doubt satisfying but the fact that after going all the way to Essendon, i came back with NOTHING =[
no bed no frame no furniture. Its saddening.
To top it off, we even drove all the way to Nunawading just to take a look at forty winks. And after finally seeing something AWESOMELY PERFECT AND TOTALLY WORTH ITS PRICE....the measurements were simply TOO BIG FOR MY ROOM!
BOOOOOO at all the bed frame manufacturers for making such big Queen size frames with such huge bed side tables and such bulky tall boys =[ !!!!!!!
niweas today was pretty tiring running all over melbourne so i think im going to turn in now.
LAterz all
3.12.08
gossip girl craze
hey all!
im back on track with a sudden passion from blogging after watching the whole of season 1 Gossip girl! But just to make it clear, i did not spend 3 whole days doing a gossip girl marathon i actually worked from thursday to monday and watched it only during the night=] and thats not the best part of it! the best part is when i got my pay slip today which states that i have earn $ XXX [and juz to paint a clearer picture, its the most i've earned in a week] WHEEE!!!!!!!! hmmm let me think, what do girls do when they have MONEY... thats right... its time for some SHOPPING!!
Ok maybe not considering the fact that i should be saving up for... something special =] which of course is not the right time yet to reveal its identity.
ANyways moving on!
was it just me? or was it my luck ? coz the day just got better. Ben and i decided to go slightly earlier to queue for the 2nd hand book sale knowing quite well how many [asian] students will beat us to it even if we were 30 mins early. So we walked in through the door and unknowingly i cut the into the "line" in which i thought was non existent since there was no line and managed to get out as one of the first to get my books. =] luckily for me i didn't get in trouble with the 76512345676543456 people queuing up behind me! =P phewwww* but yeh it was all good and at least i spent sometime with the smelly poop whilst waiting for my dad =]
OH OH AND the last thing i ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO BLOG ABOUT is how BRYAN LOST TO ME AT DOTAAAAA =]
I finally figure out that the most satisfying thing to do is to own a guy at what most ppl would call a "GUY's Game" well all i got to say is never Underestimate girl power! =] [thats right bryan! u noe wad im talking about]
yesss isnt it fun to see ones facial expression the moment they fail!? alright alright i'll stop being mean, ur face is probably bloating up in full redness by now, but chillax k =] its alright that u lost to me A GIRL ! Geez brys, no need to act like a sore loser .. tsk tsk tsk
see wad i just found
*Brys spotted whilst talking to benwong - refusing to admit his absolutely failure at DOTA*
ßryan says:
yeah
ßryan says:
with xc and my brother
b e и. o_O says:
haha
ßryan says:
she beat me without using skills
ßryan says:
(lame)
b e и. o_O says:
lol.........
b e и. o_O says:
proves even sg girls can beat msians
ßryan says:
well...
ßryan says:
technically...
ßryan says:
xc isn't a girls
b e и. o_O says:
LOL
ßryan says:
n guys don't lose to girls
damn right u are bryz! SG girls have ALWAYS AND will ALWAYS beat msians ANYTIME OK brys! its a forgone conclusion btw Juzt incase u didnt noe, if u call me a guy means ur calling ur best friend gay =P plus how hard is it to just admit that maybe the problem is not that im not a girl, rather that UR not a GUY! =D there you go! payback time! EAT IT BRYAN!
im back on track with a sudden passion from blogging after watching the whole of season 1 Gossip girl! But just to make it clear, i did not spend 3 whole days doing a gossip girl marathon i actually worked from thursday to monday and watched it only during the night=] and thats not the best part of it! the best part is when i got my pay slip today which states that i have earn $ XXX [and juz to paint a clearer picture, its the most i've earned in a week] WHEEE!!!!!!!! hmmm let me think, what do girls do when they have MONEY... thats right... its time for some SHOPPING!!
Ok maybe not considering the fact that i should be saving up for... something special =] which of course is not the right time yet to reveal its identity.
ANyways moving on!
was it just me? or was it my luck ? coz the day just got better. Ben and i decided to go slightly earlier to queue for the 2nd hand book sale knowing quite well how many [asian] students will beat us to it even if we were 30 mins early. So we walked in through the door and unknowingly i cut the into the "line" in which i thought was non existent since there was no line and managed to get out as one of the first to get my books. =] luckily for me i didn't get in trouble with the 76512345676543456 people queuing up behind me! =P phewwww* but yeh it was all good and at least i spent sometime with the smelly poop whilst waiting for my dad =]
OH OH AND the last thing i ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO BLOG ABOUT is how BRYAN LOST TO ME AT DOTAAAAA =]
I finally figure out that the most satisfying thing to do is to own a guy at what most ppl would call a "GUY's Game" well all i got to say is never Underestimate girl power! =] [thats right bryan! u noe wad im talking about]
yesss isnt it fun to see ones facial expression the moment they fail!? alright alright i'll stop being mean, ur face is probably bloating up in full redness by now, but chillax k =] its alright that u lost to me A GIRL ! Geez brys, no need to act like a sore loser .. tsk tsk tsk
see wad i just found
*Brys spotted whilst talking to benwong - refusing to admit his absolutely failure at DOTA*
ßryan says:
yeah
ßryan says:
with xc and my brother
b e и. o_O says:
haha
ßryan says:
she beat me without using skills
ßryan says:
(lame)
b e и. o_O says:
lol.........
b e и. o_O says:
proves even sg girls can beat msians
ßryan says:
well...
ßryan says:
technically...
ßryan says:
xc isn't a girls
b e и. o_O says:
LOL
ßryan says:
n guys don't lose to girls
damn right u are bryz! SG girls have ALWAYS AND will ALWAYS beat msians ANYTIME OK brys! its a forgone conclusion btw Juzt incase u didnt noe, if u call me a guy means ur calling ur best friend gay =P plus how hard is it to just admit that maybe the problem is not that im not a girl, rather that UR not a GUY! =D there you go! payback time! EAT IT BRYAN!
24.11.08
its 11.57 am and i just got off the phone with ben. Seeing as i cant get myself to sleep just yet, i decided to return to my fav place~ My blog~.
Todays devotion passage comes from Mathew 5:13-16
You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on a stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.
In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
Hmmm i really like this paragraph. It does make me think alot deeper. We are the salt of the earth. If we lose our "saltiness", how can we be made "salty" again? Question is can we ever? I cant help but wonder, when it says "it is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men" does that mean that once we lose this faith or this passion, even though we can regain and renew it, it'll never be as "salty" as before? Or does it mean that once we lose track and go astray, we can never be used again for God's work and his glory? And then it goes on to call us the "light of the world". But personally, quite so often i find myself ending up as the lamp under the bowl, hiding beneath the surface, hiding the "light" in the darkness of the world. Is it shyness? or embarrassment? or am i ashamed? 0.0
I asked myself why and tried to give myself an answer but even i dont know the answer.
So I thought to myself, if i was asked to stand up on the highest platform closest to me amongst a big crowd of people, regardless of the number of non-believers standing around me, and jump up there and scream out loud that "I LOVE JESUS!!!" ....would i be able to?
Honestly, i wouldn't be able to. But is this what god means when he wants us to show our faith and not hide or be ashamed? Is the reason for me not being able to do such a thing - the fear of being embarrassed? or the fear of people judging me? or the fear of how many non believers surround me ? i dont know. I honestly don't. But maybe one day... i'll try it. One day...
Todays devotion passage comes from Mathew 5:13-16
You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on a stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.
In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
Hmmm i really like this paragraph. It does make me think alot deeper. We are the salt of the earth. If we lose our "saltiness", how can we be made "salty" again? Question is can we ever? I cant help but wonder, when it says "it is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men" does that mean that once we lose this faith or this passion, even though we can regain and renew it, it'll never be as "salty" as before? Or does it mean that once we lose track and go astray, we can never be used again for God's work and his glory? And then it goes on to call us the "light of the world". But personally, quite so often i find myself ending up as the lamp under the bowl, hiding beneath the surface, hiding the "light" in the darkness of the world. Is it shyness? or embarrassment? or am i ashamed? 0.0
I asked myself why and tried to give myself an answer but even i dont know the answer.
So I thought to myself, if i was asked to stand up on the highest platform closest to me amongst a big crowd of people, regardless of the number of non-believers standing around me, and jump up there and scream out loud that "I LOVE JESUS!!!" ....would i be able to?
Honestly, i wouldn't be able to. But is this what god means when he wants us to show our faith and not hide or be ashamed? Is the reason for me not being able to do such a thing - the fear of being embarrassed? or the fear of people judging me? or the fear of how many non believers surround me ? i dont know. I honestly don't. But maybe one day... i'll try it. One day...
23.11.08
HElooo everyone. Im back with some photos though they are rather ugly =___= ok so maybe i didnt get the AWESOME photos i promised... but AT LEAST I made an effort to get some photos. =D
SO these are a few of the photos from the month of november, i'll have more coming up. just need to get these ones out first! =P [p.s. their not in date order but i'll make sure to explain each one ^_^]
OK this was on the 21st =D when ben n i were having lunch n i decided to capture his pervertic look ! *just incase u cant see what the speech bubble says. it says " 4 entertainment call me @ 1800-333-777"
Us - celebrating jess n tanya's birthday=]
Me n jess lovinn those glasses=] As u can see...
ok thats it for now. i gotta go do stupid course confirmation =] but all in all it was a fun day!
21.11.08
Hmmm today was awesome =] spent half the day shopping with ben and the next half watching movie n going to youth! as usual youth was violent but funnnn as.
Niweas there will be some photos coming up soon since sunday is APPROACHING! and i WILL N PROMISE TO GET SOME AWESOME PHOTOS!
niweas thats it for now=] laterz
Niweas there will be some photos coming up soon since sunday is APPROACHING! and i WILL N PROMISE TO GET SOME AWESOME PHOTOS!
niweas thats it for now=] laterz
13.11.08
enough is enough
You may be all the things in the world, knowledgeable, street smart, wise... yea sure these things are good to have, but one thing you dont have is the heart to give in when you're wrong or to take a step back in a fight and say sorry. You must win, you cannot lose. Thats how you think. And i know it because im on the receiving end. You say things and argue your way even if its wrong. You pick on me when i'm most frustrated. When you're in pain, everyone around you is insignificant and everything is about you. When you've had enough arguing, you simply abuse your status and say "enough is enough!". You know i can't say a word after that but you prick my pride just for fun. You see anger brewing within me, yet just to satisfy yourself you make me admit that i am wrong. You are unreasonable, intollerable and now i say "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH"
This is what its like....
*Every 5 seconds... *" why aren't you doing your work!?" he says...
WELL HELLO... FOR YOUR INFORMATION I"VE BEEN DOING WORK FOR THE LAST 5 HOURS AND WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM? A ROBOT? FREAKING GIVE ME A BREAK.
*he's sitting there with an ice pack on his arm, watching tv*
"My arm hurts, can you go to the kitchen n get me ice cream..."he says... [ technically he isnt asking, he's implying that he WANTS ice cream]
so i say "i'm having stomach cramps" and
he goes " but its so near, why cant you just walk there?*
... right... so i can walk there with stomach cramps since its SO NEAR... and you cant coz you've got an arm that is feeling sore [from golf which is ur fault coz y must u play golf if u know its going to be sore] .....
Seriously the only reason im on at this weird hour in the middle of the night, hitting these keys real hard, completely disregarding the fact that i have a methods exam tmr morning.... its just coz i've been kicked off the edge into a boiling cauldron to burn with anger. I am sick and tired of you being so selfish and unreasonable. I think what you need really.. is a taste of your own medicine! FREAKIN JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!! ARGH!
great... look whose here... my mum and she's trying to use her soft talk and talk me into believing that he screamed at me for a good reason. yeh right... this is what i called BULLSHIT... coz somehow the look on her face doesnt seem like she believes what is coming out from her mouth... this is the last thing that i need... another lecture from mum. great night isnt it. im so screwed for my exam tmr, but really i kind of want to fail it just to piss them off. Im pretty sure it will do some damage [since i've never failed before ] although probably not as much as i hope for... but oh well.... i just hope that i can get some peace for the next few days... it be good if i can avoid running back here to vent my anger, since i have "no right at all" to vent it in real life with him around.
The thought of me not coming home till after youth which is about 10pm is indeed awesome. cant wait till tmr. I can study in peace, take breaks in peace when i want to [ coz i'll be in the library the whole day] and feel free from unneccesary stress. wohooo. cant wait.
This is what its like....
*Every 5 seconds... *" why aren't you doing your work!?" he says...
WELL HELLO... FOR YOUR INFORMATION I"VE BEEN DOING WORK FOR THE LAST 5 HOURS AND WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM? A ROBOT? FREAKING GIVE ME A BREAK.
*he's sitting there with an ice pack on his arm, watching tv*
"My arm hurts, can you go to the kitchen n get me ice cream..."he says... [ technically he isnt asking, he's implying that he WANTS ice cream]
so i say "i'm having stomach cramps" and
he goes " but its so near, why cant you just walk there?*
... right... so i can walk there with stomach cramps since its SO NEAR... and you cant coz you've got an arm that is feeling sore [from golf which is ur fault coz y must u play golf if u know its going to be sore] .....
Seriously the only reason im on at this weird hour in the middle of the night, hitting these keys real hard, completely disregarding the fact that i have a methods exam tmr morning.... its just coz i've been kicked off the edge into a boiling cauldron to burn with anger. I am sick and tired of you being so selfish and unreasonable. I think what you need really.. is a taste of your own medicine! FREAKIN JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!! ARGH!
great... look whose here... my mum and she's trying to use her soft talk and talk me into believing that he screamed at me for a good reason. yeh right... this is what i called BULLSHIT... coz somehow the look on her face doesnt seem like she believes what is coming out from her mouth... this is the last thing that i need... another lecture from mum. great night isnt it. im so screwed for my exam tmr, but really i kind of want to fail it just to piss them off. Im pretty sure it will do some damage [since i've never failed before ] although probably not as much as i hope for... but oh well.... i just hope that i can get some peace for the next few days... it be good if i can avoid running back here to vent my anger, since i have "no right at all" to vent it in real life with him around.
The thought of me not coming home till after youth which is about 10pm is indeed awesome. cant wait till tmr. I can study in peace, take breaks in peace when i want to [ coz i'll be in the library the whole day] and feel free from unneccesary stress. wohooo. cant wait.
7.11.08
FINALLY its over... my 3 4 exam. no more accounting for a year =] WOHOOO =P
i guess thats why i've finally found the time to come back here n update it T__T
so i'll just start from yesterday coz i cant rmbr wad i did in the last month that i didnt blog T__T
yehh yesterday i had youth =P it was pretty fun coz we had heaps of girls FOR ONCE !!!! n it was AMY N LIZ's brithday HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZ for todayyyy!!!!!
Yeh n jess and i had soooo much fun in getting levin back for his absolute RUDENESS AT US over msn =] it was satisfying though =P as usual the night started off with games and i ended up tripping over with everyone falling over me within the next few minutes, but it was pretty fun anyhow ! After which we ended the night with D -teams which was really good as well =]
As for today, i had to work from 9.30 am to 3pm, it was very tiring and can i just say... i officially HATE CARROTS! T___T they are the HARDEST THINGS TO CUT! seriously... it took me like a GABIJILLION years to shred 4 boxes of carrots coz the carrots kept flying everywhere! ARGHH n by the end of it my arm was NUMB and ORANGY coloured... howwww niceee =.= To top it off after my battle with the evil flying carrots *glares at shredded carrots* i was asked to to do prep for the stinkin avocados which seriously is just SOOOOO HARD TO MASH n pretty disgusting to see it mash between ur fingers =___= so that coloured my arm green and left me with stained green and orangy arms, how attractive T_=" but apart from that work was pretty alrite i guess.
After work i went around shoppo with mum and dad for a little while, n saw quite a few nice HIGH waist skirts just that i kind of have a weird feeling abt fashion these days. Its sort of like, i can look at a nice skirt or top and totally fall in love with it, but i dont end up buying it coz i just know i wont be bothered to wear it out. I duno what is wrong with me. Problem is i can be bothered trying out HEAPS of clothes at a store but end up losing interest in buying them after trying them on, even though i think its nice. seriously i think im on the path of becoming a sloppy freak coz even i dont know why i cant be bothered buying nice clothes and wear them out.... i've lost that passion to dress up really really nicely and not look sloppy everytime i go out with friends. hmmm oh wells i hope this is just a 'phase' im going through... =| but for now i guess im better off staying at home n not shopping till i eventually grow out of this sloppy phase of mine.
alrite thats it for now... i gotta go do some work n i prob shld get started on revision for my exams which are starting this tuesday =___= AHHHHHHHHHHHH
=D laterz guys.
i guess thats why i've finally found the time to come back here n update it T__T
so i'll just start from yesterday coz i cant rmbr wad i did in the last month that i didnt blog T__T
yehh yesterday i had youth =P it was pretty fun coz we had heaps of girls FOR ONCE !!!! n it was AMY N LIZ's brithday HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZ for todayyyy!!!!!
Yeh n jess and i had soooo much fun in getting levin back for his absolute RUDENESS AT US over msn =] it was satisfying though =P as usual the night started off with games and i ended up tripping over with everyone falling over me within the next few minutes, but it was pretty fun anyhow ! After which we ended the night with D -teams which was really good as well =]
As for today, i had to work from 9.30 am to 3pm, it was very tiring and can i just say... i officially HATE CARROTS! T___T they are the HARDEST THINGS TO CUT! seriously... it took me like a GABIJILLION years to shred 4 boxes of carrots coz the carrots kept flying everywhere! ARGHH n by the end of it my arm was NUMB and ORANGY coloured... howwww niceee =.= To top it off after my battle with the evil flying carrots *glares at shredded carrots* i was asked to to do prep for the stinkin avocados which seriously is just SOOOOO HARD TO MASH n pretty disgusting to see it mash between ur fingers =___= so that coloured my arm green and left me with stained green and orangy arms, how attractive T_=" but apart from that work was pretty alrite i guess.
After work i went around shoppo with mum and dad for a little while, n saw quite a few nice HIGH waist skirts just that i kind of have a weird feeling abt fashion these days. Its sort of like, i can look at a nice skirt or top and totally fall in love with it, but i dont end up buying it coz i just know i wont be bothered to wear it out. I duno what is wrong with me. Problem is i can be bothered trying out HEAPS of clothes at a store but end up losing interest in buying them after trying them on, even though i think its nice. seriously i think im on the path of becoming a sloppy freak coz even i dont know why i cant be bothered buying nice clothes and wear them out.... i've lost that passion to dress up really really nicely and not look sloppy everytime i go out with friends. hmmm oh wells i hope this is just a 'phase' im going through... =| but for now i guess im better off staying at home n not shopping till i eventually grow out of this sloppy phase of mine.
alrite thats it for now... i gotta go do some work n i prob shld get started on revision for my exams which are starting this tuesday =___= AHHHHHHHHHHHH
=D laterz guys.
23.10.08
the only reason i am on my blog now is because i have 1 hour to waste =] niweas im pretty tired. Fridays are always long and draggy but its also good that its friday coz theres YOUTH =] WOHOOO! and im always pumped for youth ! YAYYYYY
niweas i just off the phone with a lovable pooface =P and because i was screaming at the top of my lungs, my head kinda hurts abit.. just abit >____<
Oh dear i just realized that my exams are coming soon.... thats right... study. i should be studying now. whoops? =P hehehe oh wells i need a breakk. I have decided that after the exams im going to go crazy and go to unitdstylez like every 2nd day and enjoyyyy my arse offff =] thats the only reason im studying so hardddd so that i can tell myself i deserve a reward and treat myself to unitdstylez! hehehhee
OOOO song of the day for me is MISS INDEPENDENT!
CHRIS BROWN IS SUCH AN AWESOME ARTIST I LOVE HIM!
HIS SONGS MAKE ME GO HIGH ! HEHEHE
alriteeeee thats it for nowwwww.
niweas i just off the phone with a lovable pooface =P and because i was screaming at the top of my lungs, my head kinda hurts abit.. just abit >____<
Oh dear i just realized that my exams are coming soon.... thats right... study. i should be studying now. whoops? =P hehehe oh wells i need a breakk. I have decided that after the exams im going to go crazy and go to unitdstylez like every 2nd day and enjoyyyy my arse offff =] thats the only reason im studying so hardddd so that i can tell myself i deserve a reward and treat myself to unitdstylez! hehehhee
OOOO song of the day for me is MISS INDEPENDENT!
CHRIS BROWN IS SUCH AN AWESOME ARTIST I LOVE HIM!
HIS SONGS MAKE ME GO HIGH ! HEHEHE
alriteeeee thats it for nowwwww.
18.10.08
Its a quiet sunday and im stuck at home. My house is filled with a scary type of silence that usually doesnt come about. My dads out somewhere and mums cooking lunch at this hour...(2pm) yep.
She's not talking and neither is he. Whats wrong i ask? but no one replies. Im scared because i rather hear some shouting then allow silence to fill the house.
And finally i realize that we're at the last stage of a freakishly familiar continuous dreadful cycle.
He comes back, things are great... untill he's just about to go back... something will happen... usually a fight... the only variable in this cycle is "with whom?" he'll have a fight with.
Maybe its just part of him that feels the need to let out his frustrations all in one shot.
Or maybe its just the thought of having to go away that leaves him in a bad irritable mood.
I need some fresh air. I need to study but i cant concentrate. I'm famished but i'm about to loose my appetite.
To me this is only a house not a home. Its made of wood and concrete and all sorts of material. It has a shelter under which i have a comfortable place to sleep. But sometimes i wonder if thats all it is. A house.
She's not talking and neither is he. Whats wrong i ask? but no one replies. Im scared because i rather hear some shouting then allow silence to fill the house.
And finally i realize that we're at the last stage of a freakishly familiar continuous dreadful cycle.
He comes back, things are great... untill he's just about to go back... something will happen... usually a fight... the only variable in this cycle is "with whom?" he'll have a fight with.
Maybe its just part of him that feels the need to let out his frustrations all in one shot.
Or maybe its just the thought of having to go away that leaves him in a bad irritable mood.
I need some fresh air. I need to study but i cant concentrate. I'm famished but i'm about to loose my appetite.
To me this is only a house not a home. Its made of wood and concrete and all sorts of material. It has a shelter under which i have a comfortable place to sleep. But sometimes i wonder if thats all it is. A house.
11.10.08
Sabbath day =P
I attended planet shakers church in the morning and man i was really inspired and i really loved the worship there coz its just so strong. Although there was no sermon, the 2 hours went by so quickly and before i knew it, the service had finished ! that was how good it was.
After the service, bryan and i went to maccas to get lunch and waited for my parents to come pick us up since it was 28 degrees outside T__T [ and damn it still is...] Parents took a detour to victoria market and brought bryan along as well since he hasnt been there. Got some of the FAMOUS American Jam doughnuts [ mmmm very satisfying] whilst shopping for my parent's stuff.
Yep and thats been my day so far. Niweas I should go and do some work... Just realised that tomorrow is MONDAY T___T start of another week. damn it.
After the service, bryan and i went to maccas to get lunch and waited for my parents to come pick us up since it was 28 degrees outside T__T [ and damn it still is...] Parents took a detour to victoria market and brought bryan along as well since he hasnt been there. Got some of the FAMOUS American Jam doughnuts [ mmmm very satisfying] whilst shopping for my parent's stuff.
Yep and thats been my day so far. Niweas I should go and do some work... Just realised that tomorrow is MONDAY T___T start of another week. damn it.
10.10.08
Oh noo! im back here again! i think i am developing an addiction for blogging 0.0
damn it. truth is im just running away from my accounting work thats waiting for me on the other side of the table! *glares at the book n hides behind computer screen*
i cant help it, its making me fall asleep. Tried doing one question but iFAILED miserably... not even 1 QUESTION T_T yup. Thats my saturday and its gone, just like that. what a waste eh? Well not really considering that i spent the earlier half of the day on the computer youtubing and blogging n i duno what else.. ?=D And the afternoon hours sitting in the sun [pretending to be] working on some accounting questions.... ok it was a waste of time.
Oh yeh that reminds me now! i wanted to blog about this lady at the dim sum place - taipan.
Waitress: halo. wan anymo dum-pings? 'Pok' 'Dumpings', 'chicken' 'dumpings', 'porn' 'dumpings'
... 'dumpings?' ... hmm as in dumping- poop? ...wait a minute OH I GET IT NOW... T___T
its ANYMORE - PORK DUMPLINGS , chicken DUMPLINGS, PRAWN dumplings...
Lol yep. that was it.
damn it. truth is im just running away from my accounting work thats waiting for me on the other side of the table! *glares at the book n hides behind computer screen*
i cant help it, its making me fall asleep. Tried doing one question but iFAILED miserably... not even 1 QUESTION T_T yup. Thats my saturday and its gone, just like that. what a waste eh? Well not really considering that i spent the earlier half of the day on the computer youtubing and blogging n i duno what else.. ?=D And the afternoon hours sitting in the sun [pretending to be] working on some accounting questions.... ok it was a waste of time.
Oh yeh that reminds me now! i wanted to blog about this lady at the dim sum place - taipan.
Waitress: halo. wan anymo dum-pings? 'Pok' 'Dumpings', 'chicken' 'dumpings', 'porn' 'dumpings'
... 'dumpings?' ... hmm as in dumping- poop? ...wait a minute OH I GET IT NOW... T___T
its ANYMORE - PORK DUMPLINGS , chicken DUMPLINGS, PRAWN dumplings...
Lol yep. that was it.
'Sometimes when we touch'
-Dan Hill-
You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
-Dan Hill-
You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
That song isss sooo awesome that its been stuck in my head since the start of this week! =] i love it! So OLD but so GOOD
It makes me think about alot of things and i guess the lyrics really got to me >__<
its 10.45 am now and im meant to be doing my accounting revision =] Considering the fact that my accoutning exam is just round the corner... i suspect my brain has not registered that yet since im totally not stressing or freaking out about it or else i would studying right this moment- not blogging.
Whats the term for this thing again? oh yeh procrastination and lack of motivation ! Maybe its coz im too happy today for some reason. Hmmmm i wonder what im happy about. niweas im off to do some other 'less waste of time' things =] as dad always tells me to
be bak tonite with more of the latest news
It makes me think about alot of things and i guess the lyrics really got to me >__<
its 10.45 am now and im meant to be doing my accounting revision =] Considering the fact that my accoutning exam is just round the corner... i suspect my brain has not registered that yet since im totally not stressing or freaking out about it or else i would studying right this moment- not blogging.
Whats the term for this thing again? oh yeh procrastination and lack of motivation ! Maybe its coz im too happy today for some reason. Hmmmm i wonder what im happy about. niweas im off to do some other 'less waste of time' things =] as dad always tells me to
be bak tonite with more of the latest news
Well todays a little different. Something happened and i feel so good now its totally unbelievable.
About my previous post, how humans were so complicated that half the time they dont speak my mind. Well guess who did today. Me !
After it all happened, I felt as if someone had come and lifted the 1098765432 kg load of my shoulders. To me this was the first time i've ever told someone the most deepest most innest thoughts and feelings with utmost honesty.
I don't mean that i lie half the time, what I mean is that during D&Ms ppl would talk out their thoughts and feelings yeh sure.. but those would have only probably been the surface or only half way in. Its completely natural since sometimes saying certain things without considering the outcome of it, could accidentally hurt someone and most of the time people hold back. Sometimes I dont want to admit something because i feel ashamed or shy about it but this time i took up the courage and said it out. Something i've never admitted to anyone before, in my entire life. Gosh i Felt so relieved.
I just feel so good now that all my stress and frustrations have turned into happiness and happy thoughts. I really want to thank god that he provided me the companion to tell it to and the courage to say it. Thanks ben <3 for ur understanding and Boy does it feel good. [and im sorry too... once again i guess since i've said it just now]
Niweas im off to watch Eight under now. LOVE THE DOGS! THEIR SO ADORABLE I FEEL LIKE CUDDLING A SNOW DOG NOW ![ wait wads that breed of dogs called? ] hmmmm
About my previous post, how humans were so complicated that half the time they dont speak my mind. Well guess who did today. Me !
After it all happened, I felt as if someone had come and lifted the 1098765432 kg load of my shoulders. To me this was the first time i've ever told someone the most deepest most innest thoughts and feelings with utmost honesty.
I don't mean that i lie half the time, what I mean is that during D&Ms ppl would talk out their thoughts and feelings yeh sure.. but those would have only probably been the surface or only half way in. Its completely natural since sometimes saying certain things without considering the outcome of it, could accidentally hurt someone and most of the time people hold back. Sometimes I dont want to admit something because i feel ashamed or shy about it but this time i took up the courage and said it out. Something i've never admitted to anyone before, in my entire life. Gosh i Felt so relieved.
I just feel so good now that all my stress and frustrations have turned into happiness and happy thoughts. I really want to thank god that he provided me the companion to tell it to and the courage to say it. Thanks ben <3 for ur understanding and Boy does it feel good. [and im sorry too... once again i guess since i've said it just now]
Niweas im off to watch Eight under now. LOVE THE DOGS! THEIR SO ADORABLE I FEEL LIKE CUDDLING A SNOW DOG NOW ![ wait wads that breed of dogs called? ] hmmmm
8.10.08
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find...
This is the song of the week for me and im totally in love with it =]
During the 6 or so.. hours that i was in school, something bugged me for quite awhile.
Why is it that humans [ me and you ] get so complicated at times that for a split second i even had the idea that a robots are better off than us? i mean ROBOTS VS HUMANS ....hmmm that would be interesting to see the world be taken over by an army of robotic or [closer to the human species] Bionic 'people'... but thats not the point. My point is that sometimes i wish that people would learn to just speak whats on their mind. Either say it or dont say it.
theres no in between. At least not for me. And i totally cant stand it when someone argues for the sake of argueing.. i mean if the other person is saying something completely possible, why argue? why say that it is not right when thats only what you think? whats the point of saying 'thats just stupid'. i mean stupid comes across as an insult in times like these. Sometimes it may even hurt the other person's feelings. And who knows.. it might just leave the other person thinking that its just better off not talking in the future. Is that really that hard to accept a different opinion or a different view to certain issues?
Ok dad's back, i should get going soon...
Gee the day doesnt get any better does it? Dad comes home n yells his head of at me. Totally love it when he does that.. NOT. Seriously, anger management issues much? Its not as if i stood there with a sign saying SCOLD ME YAY T__T
ARGHHH i had a tiring day at school, enough to totally wear me out and i SO DO NOT NEED THIS FROM HIM. WHich reminds me... what was the reason that he raged at me [the moment he stepped in] again? Oh yeh... thats right its something called NO REASON I JUST FEEL LIKE IT =___=. Hate it. hate it so much. alright now im going to lock myself up in the room so i dont have to face him or his BIG ISSUE with controlling his temper and the random fits that he just LOVEs to chuck at me.
Im going.
Ok this post is just to let out my frustration and the fact that i am officially in a state of depression... it is certain that my ear hole has closed - AGAIN..-
I cant believe it... this is the 3rd time its closed on me! Why is my ear so freaking sensitive! ARGH The prospect of me having to pierce my ear and go through all that pain once more is totally pleasing. NOT !
Lets see why is that? .. oh yeh thats right coz it hurts like CRAZY! and it has to get infected like 20 billion times before it settles and becomes a normal ear hole...
ARGHHHH ='[
I cant believe it... this is the 3rd time its closed on me! Why is my ear so freaking sensitive! ARGH The prospect of me having to pierce my ear and go through all that pain once more is totally pleasing. NOT !
Lets see why is that? .. oh yeh thats right coz it hurts like CRAZY! and it has to get infected like 20 billion times before it settles and becomes a normal ear hole...
ARGHHHH ='[
7.10.08
Ohhh dearrr.... not good... im pmsing full on now - worst of all I KNOW IT ! =___=! Its not as if i havent started taking the pre menstrual stress medicine [which by the way are the hugest tablest i've ever seen in my life =___=] i've been provided with --courtesy of my mum so she doesnt have to see me stomp around the house like an angry bull ...
yess thats me... actually that was me just an hour ago. If this makes sense, i HATE getting annoyed but i cant help it ! Especially when its 'the' time of the month T__T gosh someone help meeee. Has all my tablet swallowing gone to waste? i mean those huge primrose oil tablets were like gianormous... give me some credit or at least make me less irritable... actually im even considering increasing my dosage to 2 tablets [ im so going to choke]
Ok mum just interrupted me and told me how expensive my phone bill for the last month was. Lets see... 50 bucks... ehehe...*ouch* $_$ I guess there is one consolation to it though, considering the fact that it had gone down by about 10 bucks from last month! WHEE! I'm so going to get banned from my phone one day... Hopefully not anytime soon so i can keep talking to ben on the phone for the next 18 months...[oh wait.. its 14 months! NOOOO] before he goes to back permanantly for army... =[ Cant wait to see what my phone bill will be like after he leaves... im anticipating round about $0.00 ? since most of my calls are to him and the rest of the minor ones would probably fit into my allowance from my plan, which is [i assume] 20 bucks?
Hopefully this month's phone bill will continue to go down - just like the global market!
WHEE im actually managing to apply economics to my phone bill, not that it makes any sense whatsoever.
Economics is the most BORING subject ever and of course it is the subject in which i dread THE most -Just too much for my puiny little brain to take [thats if i have one haha] To top it off, i'm stuck with economics next year! WOHOO! exciting isnt it? -SO NOT- Somehow my brain went crazy and directed my hand to click on economics when making my subject choices. *notes to self, blame me brain* yepps
OH NO! i just remembered i've got lyk 76543456787654349 exercises of maths i've to catch up on [ which btw have like 976567897678987678976787678 questions per exercise]
btw did i mention that lazy ppl are poops =P
laterzzzz
yess thats me... actually that was me just an hour ago. If this makes sense, i HATE getting annoyed but i cant help it ! Especially when its 'the' time of the month T__T gosh someone help meeee. Has all my tablet swallowing gone to waste? i mean those huge primrose oil tablets were like gianormous... give me some credit or at least make me less irritable... actually im even considering increasing my dosage to 2 tablets [ im so going to choke]
Ok mum just interrupted me and told me how expensive my phone bill for the last month was. Lets see... 50 bucks... ehehe...*ouch* $_$ I guess there is one consolation to it though, considering the fact that it had gone down by about 10 bucks from last month! WHEE! I'm so going to get banned from my phone one day... Hopefully not anytime soon so i can keep talking to ben on the phone for the next 18 months...[oh wait.. its 14 months! NOOOO] before he goes to back permanantly for army... =[ Cant wait to see what my phone bill will be like after he leaves... im anticipating round about $0.00 ? since most of my calls are to him and the rest of the minor ones would probably fit into my allowance from my plan, which is [i assume] 20 bucks?
Hopefully this month's phone bill will continue to go down - just like the global market!
WHEE im actually managing to apply economics to my phone bill, not that it makes any sense whatsoever.
Economics is the most BORING subject ever and of course it is the subject in which i dread THE most -Just too much for my puiny little brain to take [thats if i have one haha] To top it off, i'm stuck with economics next year! WOHOO! exciting isnt it? -SO NOT- Somehow my brain went crazy and directed my hand to click on economics when making my subject choices. *notes to self, blame me brain* yepps
OH NO! i just remembered i've got lyk 76543456787654349 exercises of maths i've to catch up on [ which btw have like 976567897678987678976787678 questions per exercise]
btw did i mention that lazy ppl are poops =P
laterzzzz
5.10.08
First day back
=P here i am back with an urge to blog about my 'most' (cough) eventful day of my life !
RETURNING TO SCHOOL =] FIRST DAY BACK! WOHOO! exciting isnt it?
no not really - especially when it consists of having to wake up at 7.30 am (i noe i cant compare to those who wake up at 5am, but still!) and taking a freezing cold shower to wake myself up and be ready for school. ONly to go to school and be caught in the rain! *yay* jumps around T__T-
yep exciting isnt it?
nehh but the good thing was, i was determined to make it a good start! and be pumped for all my subjects =] considering the fact that if i dont do so, the probability of my grades dropping to a C or D or even an F [due to my previous 3 terms of slacking] was 0.9999999 *recurring* =] Yep that was it...
but yeh talking abt school work and grades... a little reminder *to do chinese tuition hw for tmr* just poped up at the back of brain. and yes i will get my head around to attending that issue after i finish blogging =]
Anyways the day was pretty good=P best part of my school day was lunch and recess when yooodii and eunice and i got into some smelling addiction 0.0 (hard to explain) but yeh it was funnn as usual =P the random things we do makes my day=]
Hw for the day:
*URGENT* - Chinese tuition hw [because u have tuition tmr]
- includes: 2 listenings
1 Translation
1 comprehension worksheet (worth 10 pages)
*not so urgents*
-Methods Ex on circular funcs n graphs [ HATE GRAPHING but i'll get to it anyways]
-General Ex on Imaginary and real no.s =P sounds cool eh? not reallyT__T
-Chinese essay on living in my own hse? [what a weird topic]
-Accounting revision for exam + print out 98765432345678 pages of test papers and notes sent to my email ![ yes spam my email why dont u T__T]
Alrite i think i'll stop there ... its scary enough to have to complete all that in such a short period of time... someone HELP MEEEEE!!! SAVE ME!!!
*drops into a stack of hw and dies*
RETURNING TO SCHOOL =] FIRST DAY BACK! WOHOO! exciting isnt it?
no not really - especially when it consists of having to wake up at 7.30 am (i noe i cant compare to those who wake up at 5am, but still!) and taking a freezing cold shower to wake myself up and be ready for school. ONly to go to school and be caught in the rain! *yay* jumps around T__T-
yep exciting isnt it?
nehh but the good thing was, i was determined to make it a good start! and be pumped for all my subjects =] considering the fact that if i dont do so, the probability of my grades dropping to a C or D or even an F [due to my previous 3 terms of slacking] was 0.9999999 *recurring* =] Yep that was it...
but yeh talking abt school work and grades... a little reminder *to do chinese tuition hw for tmr* just poped up at the back of brain. and yes i will get my head around to attending that issue after i finish blogging =]
Anyways the day was pretty good=P best part of my school day was lunch and recess when yooodii and eunice and i got into some smelling addiction 0.0 (hard to explain) but yeh it was funnn as usual =P the random things we do makes my day=]
Hw for the day:
*URGENT* - Chinese tuition hw [because u have tuition tmr]
- includes: 2 listenings
1 Translation
1 comprehension worksheet (worth 10 pages)
*not so urgents*
-Methods Ex on circular funcs n graphs [ HATE GRAPHING but i'll get to it anyways]
-General Ex on Imaginary and real no.s =P sounds cool eh? not reallyT__T
-Chinese essay on living in my own hse? [what a weird topic]
-Accounting revision for exam + print out 98765432345678 pages of test papers and notes sent to my email ![ yes spam my email why dont u T__T]
Alrite i think i'll stop there ... its scary enough to have to complete all that in such a short period of time... someone HELP MEEEEE!!! SAVE ME!!!
*drops into a stack of hw and dies*
4.10.08
SINGAPORE DAY!
hmmm lets see... how shld i describe today... *thinks hard*
OH THATS RIGHT, the word is AWESOME!
So i woke up at lyk 9 am? dragged my sleepy ass out of my comfy cosy warm bed and yes i actually managed to get to the shower without dropping on the ground n falling asleep =P
Dad suggested to leave house at 10, [as typical sgreans] so that we can "beat the crowd and get a head start compared to everyone else" [ but wait till we get there]
little did we know that there were about 2km worth of sgreans that had the same mentality as us and decided to do the exact same thing ! =]
great isnt it? hahaha anyways we joint the queue at the very end of the 2km long line T__T and waited in the hot morning sun...
-10 mins later-
Dad: "chin, screw this ! this is STUPID! look at the STUPID LINE! its not even MOVING!
i dont wana queue in this crazy line and look STUPID! ITs not worth it lahh. lets just go."
Me: *geez just how much does he love the word STUPID* "well cant we just wait?"
Dad: "neh this is just crazy. im going to see whats going on at the front of the line"
Dad: *walks up to the very front of the line and talks to one of the helpers controlling the queue* "hey! HAlo! eh whats going on!? Why isnt the queue moving har?!"
*i totally cant rmbr what the guy said to dad as i was too busy hiding my face and retreating backwards in embarrassment*
yes anwyays what matters is that i got my arse in there and enjoyed it like crazie =]
i loved the food the atmosphere, it just felt like singapore all over again! even the queing up and the squeezing and the typical sgrean way to get freebies! ahhh felt soo good! i miss singapore so bad!
My fav part .. well actually one of my Favs ... [coz everything was just so good] is the part where i got my photo with ALOYY!!!! [PCK's nephew *in the show*] AHHH I WAs like jumping up and down
AND OH OH! I MUST MENTION MEETING SARAH AND DAWN!!! the awesomest twins ever!!! my highschool buddies! mannn they've changed so much! HOT BABES as far as im concerned =P haha sometimes i wonder what 4 years can do to a person hahaha... seriously if not for joel, i wld have walked RIGHT PAST them and not notice a THING at all... i literally SCREAMED WHEN I SAW THEM! hahaha its just so much to digest, after not seeing them for 4 whole years! You know whats funny... the fact that they migrated to melbourne at the same time as me yet throughout these 4 years we've never met nor COINCIDENTALLY met At all! and of all places SINGAPORE DAY! hahaha man i'm so glad i didnt leave with my parents, or i wldnt have seen them there!
Yesss my parents totally ditched me for coffee with some friends... sad aint it? but oh wells i managed to cut the queue and get all the freebies and free food available =] i basically queued up twice for everything i cld =P hehehe its part of being sgrean! wohoo!
PICTURES SOON TO COME!!!! *tmr* when i get my head around to uploading the photos T___T
OH THATS RIGHT, the word is AWESOME!
So i woke up at lyk 9 am? dragged my sleepy ass out of my comfy cosy warm bed and yes i actually managed to get to the shower without dropping on the ground n falling asleep =P
Dad suggested to leave house at 10, [as typical sgreans] so that we can "beat the crowd and get a head start compared to everyone else" [ but wait till we get there]
little did we know that there were about 2km worth of sgreans that had the same mentality as us and decided to do the exact same thing ! =]
great isnt it? hahaha anyways we joint the queue at the very end of the 2km long line T__T and waited in the hot morning sun...
-10 mins later-
Dad: "chin, screw this ! this is STUPID! look at the STUPID LINE! its not even MOVING!
i dont wana queue in this crazy line and look STUPID! ITs not worth it lahh. lets just go."
Me: *geez just how much does he love the word STUPID* "well cant we just wait?"
Dad: "neh this is just crazy. im going to see whats going on at the front of the line"
Dad: *walks up to the very front of the line and talks to one of the helpers controlling the queue* "hey! HAlo! eh whats going on!? Why isnt the queue moving har?!"
*i totally cant rmbr what the guy said to dad as i was too busy hiding my face and retreating backwards in embarrassment*
yes anwyays what matters is that i got my arse in there and enjoyed it like crazie =]
i loved the food the atmosphere, it just felt like singapore all over again! even the queing up and the squeezing and the typical sgrean way to get freebies! ahhh felt soo good! i miss singapore so bad!
My fav part .. well actually one of my Favs ... [coz everything was just so good] is the part where i got my photo with ALOYY!!!! [PCK's nephew *in the show*] AHHH I WAs like jumping up and down
AND OH OH! I MUST MENTION MEETING SARAH AND DAWN!!! the awesomest twins ever!!! my highschool buddies! mannn they've changed so much! HOT BABES as far as im concerned =P haha sometimes i wonder what 4 years can do to a person hahaha... seriously if not for joel, i wld have walked RIGHT PAST them and not notice a THING at all... i literally SCREAMED WHEN I SAW THEM! hahaha its just so much to digest, after not seeing them for 4 whole years! You know whats funny... the fact that they migrated to melbourne at the same time as me yet throughout these 4 years we've never met nor COINCIDENTALLY met At all! and of all places SINGAPORE DAY! hahaha man i'm so glad i didnt leave with my parents, or i wldnt have seen them there!
Yesss my parents totally ditched me for coffee with some friends... sad aint it? but oh wells i managed to cut the queue and get all the freebies and free food available =] i basically queued up twice for everything i cld =P hehehe its part of being sgrean! wohoo!
PICTURES SOON TO COME!!!! *tmr* when i get my head around to uploading the photos T___T
2.10.08
opinion on spanking children
alrite this is my opinion on spanking children
Firstly i have to say it is not TOTALLY right or TOTALLY wrong... its in the 'grey' area.
Reason being, whether a child deserves a spanking varies with different conditions,
e.g.
what the child did to deserve a spanking
If the child reacts and learns from spankings? [ i mean if ur the parent you wld know whether ur child responds well to spankings, or if they will just end up hating you in the long run...]
etc...
basically what im trying to get at is that, if the child has committed something that calls for a spanking, give your kid the spanking but just not too hard n not OVERDONE, or you might create more trouble for urself.
it is also good to remember that kids going through puberty [norm aged 12 -16] are mostly rebellious and violence against them may influence the development of a nonviolent resorting character...
i mean we all know that hitting a child will only work up to a certain extend, once that "line" is crossed, thigns just turn bad. Feelings of Hurt, Hate, Anger etc will build up and these feelings are potentially harmful to parent-children relationships, Nevetherless i feel it really comes down to the judgement of the parents.
There is no right or wrong i guess ....
Does that help bryan??? i duno i was just typing whateva came to my mind lol but yeh =P
Firstly i have to say it is not TOTALLY right or TOTALLY wrong... its in the 'grey' area.
Reason being, whether a child deserves a spanking varies with different conditions,
e.g.
what the child did to deserve a spanking
If the child reacts and learns from spankings? [ i mean if ur the parent you wld know whether ur child responds well to spankings, or if they will just end up hating you in the long run...]
etc...
basically what im trying to get at is that, if the child has committed something that calls for a spanking, give your kid the spanking but just not too hard n not OVERDONE, or you might create more trouble for urself.
it is also good to remember that kids going through puberty [norm aged 12 -16] are mostly rebellious and violence against them may influence the development of a nonviolent resorting character...
i mean we all know that hitting a child will only work up to a certain extend, once that "line" is crossed, thigns just turn bad. Feelings of Hurt, Hate, Anger etc will build up and these feelings are potentially harmful to parent-children relationships, Nevetherless i feel it really comes down to the judgement of the parents.
There is no right or wrong i guess ....
Does that help bryan??? i duno i was just typing whateva came to my mind lol but yeh =P
21.9.08
alrite this post is a couple of days late so yehh
niweas on saturday, i headed to the city with liz and michelle totally excited about the Our backyard crew performance... only to find out that it was on SUNDAY!!!!! =[ how sadd
so we decided to make ourselves happy by doing some "window" shopping...
well which didnt turn out as "window" as we meant for it to be...
we ended up doing actual shopping T__T i spent 15 bucks on this really nice dress (below)
yes yes im very happy with myself =]
then we decided to go eat some dumplinggss...
... *glares at* "Camy's Shanghai Dumplings " (this alley way restaurant)
i had high hopes for some good dumplings seeing as i've had a craving for them for quite some time...
however i hate to say it.. but that place was a complete dissapointment! the dumplings and the redbean paste thingo that we thought wld be nice, turned out to be the exact opposite... one plate of 16 dumplings costed 6 something. T___T no wonder.... it was cheap and bad...
it was just disatisfying and my crave turned into sickness when i reached home.
i felt like puking when i got home and ended up taking a nap for the rest of the afternoon, in an attempt to sleep the disgusting-ness off...
*note to self... never eat dumplings from alley way restaurants... *
4.9.08
is it possible that one can become stupider? or if im even making any sense at all... dumber? if you ask me, my initial answer would be BS ! as if you can become "dumber" or "stupider" over a couple of months!
but now... i guess i gotta change that answer... coz the impossible is happening to me!!! i feel as though im getting stupider by the day. my grades are getting worse and worse and i feel almost helpless not being able to do anything to stop myself from becoming stupider=___="
am i making sense?
alrite let me illustrate by giving an examples....
my accounting ICT outcome at the start of the week was alright till i realised (after i walked out of the room) that i made many careless mistakes! *there goes my A+*
by right i should be acing my chinese outcomes seeing as im in beginnners but i totally screwed my most recent chinese outcome that was a couple of days ago! that feeling of dissappointment in oneself is totally depressing! i knew how to do those questions but i just didnt apply... ARGHHH
and then methods outcome today... i knew how to do all the questions i just made so many careless mistakes T_______T ARGHHH so i screwed this one up too!
IM SCREWING UP EVERYTHING! every outcome in the last 1 week turned out BAD BAD BAD! i just wished there was a way to make myself smarter and more alert when im doing questions so i dont lose out to my own careless mistakes!
im just so dissappointed in myself *sigh*
but now... i guess i gotta change that answer... coz the impossible is happening to me!!! i feel as though im getting stupider by the day. my grades are getting worse and worse and i feel almost helpless not being able to do anything to stop myself from becoming stupider=___="
am i making sense?
alrite let me illustrate by giving an examples....
my accounting ICT outcome at the start of the week was alright till i realised (after i walked out of the room) that i made many careless mistakes! *there goes my A+*
by right i should be acing my chinese outcomes seeing as im in beginnners but i totally screwed my most recent chinese outcome that was a couple of days ago! that feeling of dissappointment in oneself is totally depressing! i knew how to do those questions but i just didnt apply... ARGHHH
and then methods outcome today... i knew how to do all the questions i just made so many careless mistakes T_______T ARGHHH so i screwed this one up too!
IM SCREWING UP EVERYTHING! every outcome in the last 1 week turned out BAD BAD BAD! i just wished there was a way to make myself smarter and more alert when im doing questions so i dont lose out to my own careless mistakes!
im just so dissappointed in myself *sigh*
mixed up
today's weather was amazing! lunch break was so fun being able to run around in circles stalking eunice and julia=] (i have to sayyy....u guys were pretty pro at running away from judi n me) heheh but unfortunately judi and i were smarterrrr =] HEHEHE [although u scared me at ass] T___T"
niweas on with the happenings of today.
its so ironic how i got this same passage from my chinese tuition teacher that was on the outcome today... and coincidentally It so happens i was ABOUT to do it the night before but i decided that i cbb =___= there you go... i can almost see the grade i'll get for this outcome.. C or a B maybe?? =___= crappp somethings wrong with me! im slacking in everything! the word motivation no longer exists in my world! HELP MEE!!!
self awareness of my slacking attitude is not helping at all T__T its bad i noe.. but fact is i hav an app task tmr n by right i SHOULD be studying for it... but hmm reminds me.. why am i not? oh yeh thats right... im being a slacker...
half the time i tell my friends "DONT SLACK ! MOTIVATE URSELF! DO SOME WORK! =D" and within the next second im off day dreaming or socialising in class =] thats me alright =]
alrite enough abt sch ! on to work at grill'd !
today was pretty fun seeing as i FINALLY made some improvement at cooking the chips and i got 1 COMPLIMENT FOR IT ! my gosh the sense of satisfaction (although my palms and thumbs were scalded with hot chip oilT__T) was COMPLETELY SENSATIONAL... but it died down after awhile i guess... and in no time i was feeling the pain of hot oil burning on my hands =__= I WOULD have washed it off but somehow all the orders came at 1 go leaving me with hardly a second to even take a breath. *thats how busy it was*
+ note to self!+ get some gloves before you start....
all in all it was a satisfying day i guess =]
hmmm maybe i shld go study for my outcome tmr ... *yawnss* i feel tired already =] hehehe
alrite thats the end of it !
im off to planet xc =]
laterz
niweas on with the happenings of today.
its so ironic how i got this same passage from my chinese tuition teacher that was on the outcome today... and coincidentally It so happens i was ABOUT to do it the night before but i decided that i cbb =___= there you go... i can almost see the grade i'll get for this outcome.. C or a B maybe?? =___= crappp somethings wrong with me! im slacking in everything! the word motivation no longer exists in my world! HELP MEE!!!
self awareness of my slacking attitude is not helping at all T__T its bad i noe.. but fact is i hav an app task tmr n by right i SHOULD be studying for it... but hmm reminds me.. why am i not? oh yeh thats right... im being a slacker...
half the time i tell my friends "DONT SLACK ! MOTIVATE URSELF! DO SOME WORK! =D" and within the next second im off day dreaming or socialising in class =] thats me alright =]
alrite enough abt sch ! on to work at grill'd !
today was pretty fun seeing as i FINALLY made some improvement at cooking the chips and i got 1 COMPLIMENT FOR IT ! my gosh the sense of satisfaction (although my palms and thumbs were scalded with hot chip oilT__T) was COMPLETELY SENSATIONAL... but it died down after awhile i guess... and in no time i was feeling the pain of hot oil burning on my hands =__= I WOULD have washed it off but somehow all the orders came at 1 go leaving me with hardly a second to even take a breath. *thats how busy it was*
+ note to self!+ get some gloves before you start....
all in all it was a satisfying day i guess =]
hmmm maybe i shld go study for my outcome tmr ... *yawnss* i feel tired already =] hehehe
alrite thats the end of it !
im off to planet xc =]
laterz
2.9.08
back in sg!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLLL!! I MISS U SO MUCH!!!!!!
I RMBRED UR BIRTHDAY! HEHEHEE
*sending back 10000000tonnes of LOVE back to sg just for u!*
P.S. RMBR TO TELL ME IF U WANT ANYTHING K! =] HEHEHE
<333333 XC
I RMBRED UR BIRTHDAY! HEHEHEE
*sending back 10000000tonnes of LOVE back to sg just for u!*
P.S. RMBR TO TELL ME IF U WANT ANYTHING K! =] HEHEHE
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1.9.08
keeping up
Gosh .. i have to say i really give it up to all those [LIZ is particular] who can continuosly update their blogs every single day!!! Mann i seem to have a short term memory loss problem... like seriously... i keep forgetting every couple of days that i doo own a blog page... and then after a few days i'll somehow randomly rmbr ... OH YEAH... thats right... i have a blog.. =__=" damn it
niwaes i am blogging atm due to an over exhausting monday and a crazily aching right hand from all the writing i've been doing in the last 2 hours since my computer decided to crash on me just when i needed it the most! [i'm using my mum's comp atm] ROARRR bloody trojan spyware crap ... why my computer!? its bad enough i have an ICT acc outcome tmr n i have no bloody idea what its abt and how to work excel =__= [ i noe thats stupid but i really don't... ] i am sooo screwed!
well all i can say is technology should never be trusted >=| they are evil little computerised monsters that purposely fail you just when you need them the most!
BUT i shall not be defeated by their EVIL little scheme to ruin my revision for my outcome tmr! >=} I WILL improvise... [... alrite i'm not sure how atm... but I WILL]....
and i shall prove those complicated evil lil monsters what i'm made off and that i don't need to rely on them for anything ! =]
*takes a breath* phew now i feel so much better hehehe
anyways for the time being i guess i'll just have to hand write everything and get used to being technology free for a couple of weeks since my dad has decided to either send it back to singapore for repair or some Dell outlet in melbourne....
ok moving on....
today being monday is the most dreadful day of the week, however theres only 1 thing to look foward to .. and that is tmr's BHS- SYTYCD comp !!!!!!! WOOHOOO i'm pretty excited knowing theres gonna be krumping, popping, hip hop and breaking all by ppl i know =]
josh - krumping
popping - jesse
hip hop - Nun bitt
breaking- Gin
hehehe pretty exciting ! i cant wait to see what they've prepared and who wins in the end !!! WOHOOO anyways i'm off to dinner now
-fried kranskys and noodles--*YUMMYY*-
niwaes i am blogging atm due to an over exhausting monday and a crazily aching right hand from all the writing i've been doing in the last 2 hours since my computer decided to crash on me just when i needed it the most! [i'm using my mum's comp atm] ROARRR bloody trojan spyware crap ... why my computer!? its bad enough i have an ICT acc outcome tmr n i have no bloody idea what its abt and how to work excel =__= [ i noe thats stupid but i really don't... ] i am sooo screwed!
well all i can say is technology should never be trusted >=| they are evil little computerised monsters that purposely fail you just when you need them the most!
BUT i shall not be defeated by their EVIL little scheme to ruin my revision for my outcome tmr! >=} I WILL improvise... [... alrite i'm not sure how atm... but I WILL]....
and i shall prove those complicated evil lil monsters what i'm made off and that i don't need to rely on them for anything ! =]
*takes a breath* phew now i feel so much better hehehe
anyways for the time being i guess i'll just have to hand write everything and get used to being technology free for a couple of weeks since my dad has decided to either send it back to singapore for repair or some Dell outlet in melbourne....
ok moving on....
today being monday is the most dreadful day of the week, however theres only 1 thing to look foward to .. and that is tmr's BHS- SYTYCD comp !!!!!!! WOOHOOO i'm pretty excited knowing theres gonna be krumping, popping, hip hop and breaking all by ppl i know =]
josh - krumping
popping - jesse
hip hop - Nun bitt
breaking- Gin
hehehe pretty exciting ! i cant wait to see what they've prepared and who wins in the end !!! WOHOOO anyways i'm off to dinner now
-fried kranskys and noodles--*YUMMYY*-
23.8.08
i know who holds tomorrow...
- I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.
- Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.
Ev'ry step is getting brighter,
As the golden stairs I climb;
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;
Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eyes,
At the ending of the rainbow,
Where the mountains touch the sky.
- Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.
I don't know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One Who feeds the sparrow,
Is the One Who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion,
May be through the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,
And I'm covered with His blood.
- Refrain
Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.
'at the edge'
i'm on the edge of it...
why cant she say something good or something that is ANTI depressing... sometimes i feel like being nice to her, but yet its so hard when she does what she does! i mean yeahhh i shldnt forget all the things she's done for me but she doesnt have to dump all her frustrations on me !!!
FAR OUTTT! i really dont know how long more i can take it !!! everytime we sit down together for a meal, its always ABT HER !!! its ALWAYS abt how she is feeling depressed... how she cant take it anymore etc etc but sometimes it makes me wonder ... "do you ever consider the fact that ppl around u ... JUST MIGHT have their own problems too?" and that "when someones trying to keep happy... you dont just go around and tell them depressing things to push them off the edge?"
i just want a break. maybe if she cld just NOT say anything that will push me off the edge for 1 MEAL... i wld be so friggin happy...
so this is my dilemma ... [cant believe i'm back to this]
i wana tell her that i cant take it anymore... because every time she starts on one of those depressing problems.. i jus feel like bursting into anger ... or running away from it, from her... yet i cant bring myself to do it..coz she's my mum... ARGHHH ..... so guess wad happens.... it goes one big round and ends up inside of me ...each time that happens... i get more and more frustrated... each time that happens.. it adds to my burdens...
each time that happens... i juz feel lyk im closing in on the edge...
i'm gonna fall off soon.
i dont wana hurt her but i dont wana have to take all the burdens...
i like being happy... i like feeling light
i just cant help it , i know im being selfish
and i dont like having to be selfish
but i'm not willing to be depressed 24/7...
so what am i to do??
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell off the edge today...
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but i still cant bring myself to tell her all this...
i think i'll just live the depressing times in quietness...
coz i trust that god will be there to catch me when i fall off the edge once again...
he'll never quit... and so i'll learn to take it in...
why cant she say something good or something that is ANTI depressing... sometimes i feel like being nice to her, but yet its so hard when she does what she does! i mean yeahhh i shldnt forget all the things she's done for me but she doesnt have to dump all her frustrations on me !!!
FAR OUTTT! i really dont know how long more i can take it !!! everytime we sit down together for a meal, its always ABT HER !!! its ALWAYS abt how she is feeling depressed... how she cant take it anymore etc etc but sometimes it makes me wonder ... "do you ever consider the fact that ppl around u ... JUST MIGHT have their own problems too?" and that "when someones trying to keep happy... you dont just go around and tell them depressing things to push them off the edge?"
i just want a break. maybe if she cld just NOT say anything that will push me off the edge for 1 MEAL... i wld be so friggin happy...
so this is my dilemma ... [cant believe i'm back to this]
i wana tell her that i cant take it anymore... because every time she starts on one of those depressing problems.. i jus feel like bursting into anger ... or running away from it, from her... yet i cant bring myself to do it..coz she's my mum... ARGHHH ..... so guess wad happens.... it goes one big round and ends up inside of me ...each time that happens... i get more and more frustrated... each time that happens.. it adds to my burdens...
each time that happens... i juz feel lyk im closing in on the edge...
i'm gonna fall off soon.
i dont wana hurt her but i dont wana have to take all the burdens...
i like being happy... i like feeling light
i just cant help it , i know im being selfish
and i dont like having to be selfish
but i'm not willing to be depressed 24/7...
so what am i to do??
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell off the edge today...
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but i still cant bring myself to tell her all this...
i think i'll just live the depressing times in quietness...
coz i trust that god will be there to catch me when i fall off the edge once again...
he'll never quit... and so i'll learn to take it in...
21.8.08
Looks can be decieving
You may say to someone that you envy them.. but maybe that specific thing that you envy them for is exactly what their short of... maybe things are not what they seem on the outside...
theres always that Maybe~
reality is to know a person truly well, one has to be observant... remembering each little motion or way the other person does something.
If you wanna put it to the test.. heres a way to find out
1- Pick someone you think you know truly well
2- write a paragraph on that person and in that paragraph include everything- every little detail abt him or her that you can think of, that others might not realize or know abt...[e.g. habits... fav food...most hated color... fav shop to go to...fav snack etc]
... If you cant think of much to say then... think again... coz its a high chance you don't know that person as well as you think you do...
=] try it !!! at least it tells the truth.
theres always that Maybe~
reality is to know a person truly well, one has to be observant... remembering each little motion or way the other person does something.
If you wanna put it to the test.. heres a way to find out
1- Pick someone you think you know truly well
2- write a paragraph on that person and in that paragraph include everything- every little detail abt him or her that you can think of, that others might not realize or know abt...[e.g. habits... fav food...most hated color... fav shop to go to...fav snack etc]
... If you cant think of much to say then... think again... coz its a high chance you don't know that person as well as you think you do...
=] try it !!! at least it tells the truth.
18.8.08
dilemma
Is it juz me being indecisive.. or is it really that hard to make a decision!??? I absolutely cannot stand having to make a choice between *good* or *good*...i mean who wants to have to choose between 2 good things when the best choice is to have the best or BOTH WORLDS... .which of course... in real life does not exist 99.99999% of the time...
but.. but.. there is still that 0.000009 *recurring* % ... so can i have it ??
i wished there was a see saw to weigh ALL the pros and cons for me so that i don't have to take so much into consideration and make a choice and stick with it!... but really it comes down to being afraid of regret after making that choice... HELPP ~
its my dilemma ...
left or right?
1st or 2nd?
yes or no?
Uni acc or Economics?
specialist maths or Uni acc?
Economics or specialist maths?
HELPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!
laterz
*gone to take a breath*
but.. but.. there is still that 0.000009 *recurring* % ... so can i have it ??
i wished there was a see saw to weigh ALL the pros and cons for me so that i don't have to take so much into consideration and make a choice and stick with it!... but really it comes down to being afraid of regret after making that choice... HELPP ~
its my dilemma ...
left or right?
1st or 2nd?
yes or no?
Uni acc or Economics?
specialist maths or Uni acc?
Economics or specialist maths?
HELPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!
laterz
*gone to take a breath*
17.8.08
It sure feels good to be back on planet earth ... from a hectic ass 3 weeks! life has been full and BUSY ... thats why i didnt blog.... T__T actually truth is i forgot i had a blog.. till a couple of days ago!!!
BUT anyways!!! These 3 weeks has been pretty different.. i've had real good times but through it all i figured something out and here it is.
Its not hard to be selfless yet its so easy to be selfish and in these passing weeks i've realized that i am actually VERY self centered.. in a way that alot of the times my friends are always there to support me but [if it makes sense] i hardly swap places with them. it took me alot of courage to admit and very little observation to realize i was doing it to the ppl i really and truly treasure around me... and i'm sorry guys if u've ever felt that way abt me. i'll try to change but i guess it'll take sometime...
anyways on with life... i've had 3 outcomes in the last week and 3 more to go ... it sucks but i guess one good point is that once this week is over =] i'm closer to the holidays ! WHEEEEE
alrite time to get back to studying=.-
BUT anyways!!! These 3 weeks has been pretty different.. i've had real good times but through it all i figured something out and here it is.
Its not hard to be selfless yet its so easy to be selfish and in these passing weeks i've realized that i am actually VERY self centered.. in a way that alot of the times my friends are always there to support me but [if it makes sense] i hardly swap places with them. it took me alot of courage to admit and very little observation to realize i was doing it to the ppl i really and truly treasure around me... and i'm sorry guys if u've ever felt that way abt me. i'll try to change but i guess it'll take sometime...
anyways on with life... i've had 3 outcomes in the last week and 3 more to go ... it sucks but i guess one good point is that once this week is over =] i'm closer to the holidays ! WHEEEEE
alrite time to get back to studying=.-
26.7.08
Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didnt ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
First thing Id do, is pray for time to crawl
Then Id unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
Id hold you every second
Say a million I love yous
Thats what Id do, with one more day with you
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didnt ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you
First thing Id do, is pray for time to crawl
Then Id unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
Id hold you every second
Say a million I love yous
Thats what Id do, with one more day with you
Last night was a pretty good night. Instead of going to one of my family friend's house, i stayed home and spent some real quality time with my mum. We baked and sung and danced in the kitchen. That was one hell of a time. And out of the blue i juz realised, how time flies with age. It was only yesterday that i was holding her hand wherever i went. Now my wings are taking me further and further away from that day. I grew up and she grew older. The wrinkles and white strands of hair appearing randomly on her head are hints that she's beginning the race against time like everyone else of her age. Even though i do wonder what i'll look like when i get to her age, i have a gut feeling i'll be an exact duplicate of her coz we are juz so alike in our habits, our thoughts, our characters and our aim in life etc. I juz love her so much =] even though she can be annoying sometimes... maybe even 24/7 Hehehe =P
alrite... Moving on!
Today started out greattt =] i woke up at 9.30 and did the usual getting ready makeup etc, and went to church. Was on worship today and i guess aunty susan's message to us (the worship team) during our devotional time before service, was really encouraging. She told us to trust in the lord in everything coz he loves us and will be with us if we give the worship up to him. So i guess we did pretty well for worship and that was the only good thing today i guess.
If you want u can take a guess at the title of this song =P
Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell
17.7.08
Niweas i have came to the conclusion that SALT AND SATURATED FAT LEAD U TO THE MOST UNPLEASANT TIMELY DEATH! after watching the most GRUESOME disgusting )(*&^%$#@!@#$% program... of which a 25 stone man is DISSECTED by a team of experts.. *faints*
Looking at all that fat in the man's tummy, the thickness of it when it was cut up ... honestly it was no different to that of a pork belly! ok those of you who like pork belly, you're gonna hate me for this but its true! And worst of all his diaphragm was in the most ABSURD place anyone would have even imagined... it was in line with his nipples! zomgoshhh ...
But WAIT! theres more....
DUE to the movement of his diaphragm all the way up there... his organs have been squashed all the way up there too. his lungs were pretty much at the bottom of his neck, his heart was filled with white fatty tissues and was twice the avg size a heart shld be. His lungs were much smaller than a normal lung and his liver and kidneys were all lost in the LAYERS OF FAT SURROUNDING HIS ORGANS!!!!!!!! SHld i keep going? Hmm mayb not, i think i'll juz make sure i tell the last part. Well the expert who dissected this 25 stone [140+ kg] man, considered this man to have died because of heart failure [ lol no surprise there!] and concluded that the man pretty much " Ate himself to death " ....
Looking at all that fat in the man's tummy, the thickness of it when it was cut up ... honestly it was no different to that of a pork belly! ok those of you who like pork belly, you're gonna hate me for this but its true! And worst of all his diaphragm was in the most ABSURD place anyone would have even imagined... it was in line with his nipples! zomgoshhh ...
But WAIT! theres more....
DUE to the movement of his diaphragm all the way up there... his organs have been squashed all the way up there too. his lungs were pretty much at the bottom of his neck, his heart was filled with white fatty tissues and was twice the avg size a heart shld be. His lungs were much smaller than a normal lung and his liver and kidneys were all lost in the LAYERS OF FAT SURROUNDING HIS ORGANS!!!!!!!! SHld i keep going? Hmm mayb not, i think i'll juz make sure i tell the last part. Well the expert who dissected this 25 stone [140+ kg] man, considered this man to have died because of heart failure [ lol no surprise there!] and concluded that the man pretty much " Ate himself to death " ....
13.7.08
Oh nooo schools on tmr !!!!!!!>____<
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*FAINTS*
Is it really worth it to give your love to someone who doesnt even give a shit all abt you? Hmmm lemme think.... i thinkNOT ... So what if you used to be best friends or shared all your secrets or were like sisters? what matters now is that was history and you doing all that for her is just wasting your own time, tears, effort and energy. Save your own energy otherwise soon you'll end up in a dead knot and feel totally wasted. Coz truth is... no matter how much you wish its not true... people like her are never gonna change. They hold grudges, store hatred and have no love. They only think about themselves, everything should revolve around them and they'll never give in during a fight. They always think their right, their never in the wrong. They refuse to say sorry and always blame somebody else for their mistakes. Would it really be of any use to hope that she will change? i doubt so. Its easy to say, why doesn't god do anything about it? Honestly, even i dont know the answer to that question too. Maybe he has a plan? Maybe its test of faith? but whatever it is i cant hold on any longer, i'm losing it already.
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*FAINTS*
Is it really worth it to give your love to someone who doesnt even give a shit all abt you? Hmmm lemme think.... i thinkNOT ... So what if you used to be best friends or shared all your secrets or were like sisters? what matters now is that was history and you doing all that for her is just wasting your own time, tears, effort and energy. Save your own energy otherwise soon you'll end up in a dead knot and feel totally wasted. Coz truth is... no matter how much you wish its not true... people like her are never gonna change. They hold grudges, store hatred and have no love. They only think about themselves, everything should revolve around them and they'll never give in during a fight. They always think their right, their never in the wrong. They refuse to say sorry and always blame somebody else for their mistakes. Would it really be of any use to hope that she will change? i doubt so. Its easy to say, why doesn't god do anything about it? Honestly, even i dont know the answer to that question too. Maybe he has a plan? Maybe its test of faith? but whatever it is i cant hold on any longer, i'm losing it already.
10.7.08
1st day at grill'd
damn righttt its my first day of my new job=] started off at 12 and made a few mistakes but since i have an awesome brain [cough] i managed to get a hang of the whole working at the till and the touch screen register thingo [well at least i think so]
*note to liz* when u saw me dropping everything on the floor=___= i wasnt a master of the register YET so yehh... it was only awhile after u left that i stopped making mistakes!
alrite so here was the highlight of my work ... i got scolded by some cranky picky as lady!
xc: HI HOW CAN I HELP U TODAY?
lady: YEs give me.. @#$%^&*%$@% etc...
xc: alrite that will be 11.50 thanx
lady: *gives 20 bucks and 50 cent coin*
xc: [being new at the till] keyed in the wrong amount received. instead of keying in 20.50 i keyed in 20 bucks =__=
xc: hey im sorry i keyed in 20 bucks so *tried to give back the 50 cent coin*
lady: WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE? CANT U JUZ GIVE ME 10 BUCKS CHANGE! DID U DO YEAR 12 MATHS !???
xc: [note to self* >=| GRRRRRR IMMA KICK UR ASS MISSY] actually dw abt it! sorry abt that !
lady: GEEZ
thinks* SCREW U LADY! IM A YEAR 11 alrite... n plus IF U HAD ANY KNOWLEDGE YEAR 12 MATHS DOESNT CONSIST OF 20 - 9.50 and knowing how to operate the stooopid tills! *GRRR
but anyways !!! apart from that 1 moment! EVERYTHING ELSE WAS AWESOME!! I LOVED TH joB! BUT IM totally RUN OUT AND TIREDDD!!!! my LEGS are lyk gonna snap in half!
=] SOMEONE DONATE ME A PAIR OF CARVES =] THXOK BYE =]
*note to liz* when u saw me dropping everything on the floor=___= i wasnt a master of the register YET so yehh... it was only awhile after u left that i stopped making mistakes!
alrite so here was the highlight of my work ... i got scolded by some cranky picky as lady!
xc: HI HOW CAN I HELP U TODAY?
lady: YEs give me.. @#$%^&*%$@% etc...
xc: alrite that will be 11.50 thanx
lady: *gives 20 bucks and 50 cent coin*
xc: [being new at the till] keyed in the wrong amount received. instead of keying in 20.50 i keyed in 20 bucks =__=
xc: hey im sorry i keyed in 20 bucks so *tried to give back the 50 cent coin*
lady: WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE? CANT U JUZ GIVE ME 10 BUCKS CHANGE! DID U DO YEAR 12 MATHS !???
xc: [note to self* >=| GRRRRRR IMMA KICK UR ASS MISSY] actually dw abt it! sorry abt that !
lady: GEEZ
thinks* SCREW U LADY! IM A YEAR 11 alrite... n plus IF U HAD ANY KNOWLEDGE YEAR 12 MATHS DOESNT CONSIST OF 20 - 9.50 and knowing how to operate the stooopid tills! *GRRR
but anyways !!! apart from that 1 moment! EVERYTHING ELSE WAS AWESOME!! I LOVED TH joB! BUT IM totally RUN OUT AND TIREDDD!!!! my LEGS are lyk gonna snap in half!
=] SOMEONE DONATE ME A PAIR OF CARVES =] THXOK BYE =]
8.7.08
THANK YOU ALL FOR THE WONDERFUL WISHES AND BIRTHDAY CARDS AND GIFTS AND REMEMBERING MY BIRTHDAY !=] Ben Jess Eunice Judy Liz Lina tanya and you guys know who you areeee lah=] HEHE <33
Alrite well before i begin my reflection on the past 16 years? wait 15? [shhs I CAN COUNT] of my life... let me just warn u, its gonna be a long one, so if ur not ready to sit tight then close this page right now =]
Anyways.. on with it ! In the last 16 years, i've been through the typical teenage years of rebellion and now i can definitely say that boyy am i glad that its almost over! Honestly, i cant rmbr when i learnt how to tell lies or when i learnt how to fight back and speak my mind, or when i started to drift away from this family. But i one thing for sure was that this begun not that long ago, probably during my recent years in Melbourne i guess... Coming here was this huge step that we as a family had to take together. But living here was a whole different story. Throughout those times, there were those real good times where i felt like i was standing at the peak of the highest mountain ever, and also those bad times where life felt like i was on this downward spiral that ended in this massive ditch [ like those quick sands] which would suck you in faster the more you struggled.
And recently i lost the one thing i found when i came here and that was this amazing faith in God . I lost it because i gave in to anger and rage and lost a relationship that meant the world to me. So why couldn't sorry do the trick? well heres how it works, i figured that some things in life can't be mended with just a word of "sorry", somethings.. like a broken heart or a disagreement that turned into feud and hatred... And now that i look back, all i can say is [with regret] that i wished none of it had happened. i wished i hadn't lost my temper and i wish i hadn't lost control of my rationality and i wish i hadn't used those bad words on you. I was so foolish as to unconsciously blame God for all the wrongs in my life but now i thank god, that through these difficult times i learnt to really listen to his word and search for him. I learnt that only through prayer, the impossible becomes possible. And of course i couldnt have done this without the encouragement and support from my a few special ppl. In particular, Ben and Eunice for the ENDLESS support and encouragement that they gave me. I love you guys to bits and pieces<3 Even though the other things i have gained along the way will never replace the relationship [ i lost] that i screwed up, you learn to look on the bright side to everything and just live with hope and learn that not everything in life will do your way... most importantly i learn't the true meaning that God has a reason for EVERYTHING.
Well today something strange happened. In the morning i read my devotion book as usual, and the message
was to encourage one another in faith and so coincidentally i received encouragement from the one person who knew me inside out =] and that was "youuu" [Ben.H] ! I gotta say you picked the right verse [whether by accident or not] i wont forget that verse from Deuteronomy especially in times when i find it hard to cope=] Btw man i gotta say im pretty impressed even though the my eyes went blind from reading your hand writing! [i couldnt read a few words... ok maybe a paragraph HAHA jks jks] BUT i could tell it was really from your heart and i appreciate that. I'll be sure to make FULL use of the 24 /7 service and just in reply of your question ... im up for 2 years FOSHOO BROO! ANYTIMEEE Yall ! HEHEHE and lastly thanks for the whole bf/bf thingo ! [ you noe wad i mean lah] so.. BFFL yea yea?
*Judy* Ehh girll thanks for you AWESOME AS CARD ! EVen though this doesn't happen in the book of TIN TIN ... [who caresss] TINTIN LOVES SNOWY HIS [her] FAV MOST FAITHFUL COMPANION TILL THE ENDD! WOOHOOOO =]<3333333 p.s. Snowy is on my bed now =] WInk wink*
*jess* EHH girll=] man the sleepover was the BESTTT and THANK YOU for the awesome fireworks !!! and the cake !!! [why dont u go be a baker?HEHHE ] we Have to do another sleepover K!
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ok i needa go now =___= i've officially spent 2 hours on blogging ... [NOTE TO SELF* NOT GOOD] T__T
Alrite well before i begin my reflection on the past 16 years? wait 15? [shhs I CAN COUNT] of my life... let me just warn u, its gonna be a long one, so if ur not ready to sit tight then close this page right now =]
Anyways.. on with it ! In the last 16 years, i've been through the typical teenage years of rebellion and now i can definitely say that boyy am i glad that its almost over! Honestly, i cant rmbr when i learnt how to tell lies or when i learnt how to fight back and speak my mind, or when i started to drift away from this family. But i one thing for sure was that this begun not that long ago, probably during my recent years in Melbourne i guess... Coming here was this huge step that we as a family had to take together. But living here was a whole different story. Throughout those times, there were those real good times where i felt like i was standing at the peak of the highest mountain ever, and also those bad times where life felt like i was on this downward spiral that ended in this massive ditch [ like those quick sands] which would suck you in faster the more you struggled.
And recently i lost the one thing i found when i came here and that was this amazing faith in God . I lost it because i gave in to anger and rage and lost a relationship that meant the world to me. So why couldn't sorry do the trick? well heres how it works, i figured that some things in life can't be mended with just a word of "sorry", somethings.. like a broken heart or a disagreement that turned into feud and hatred... And now that i look back, all i can say is [with regret] that i wished none of it had happened. i wished i hadn't lost my temper and i wish i hadn't lost control of my rationality and i wish i hadn't used those bad words on you. I was so foolish as to unconsciously blame God for all the wrongs in my life but now i thank god, that through these difficult times i learnt to really listen to his word and search for him. I learnt that only through prayer, the impossible becomes possible. And of course i couldnt have done this without the encouragement and support from my a few special ppl. In particular, Ben and Eunice for the ENDLESS support and encouragement that they gave me. I love you guys to bits and pieces<3 Even though the other things i have gained along the way will never replace the relationship [ i lost] that i screwed up, you learn to look on the bright side to everything and just live with hope and learn that not everything in life will do your way... most importantly i learn't the true meaning that God has a reason for EVERYTHING.
Well today something strange happened. In the morning i read my devotion book as usual, and the message
was to encourage one another in faith and so coincidentally i received encouragement from the one person who knew me inside out =] and that was "youuu" [Ben.H] ! I gotta say you picked the right verse [whether by accident or not] i wont forget that verse from Deuteronomy especially in times when i find it hard to cope=] Btw man i gotta say im pretty impressed even though the my eyes went blind from reading your hand writing! [i couldnt read a few words... ok maybe a paragraph HAHA jks jks] BUT i could tell it was really from your heart and i appreciate that. I'll be sure to make FULL use of the 24 /7 service and just in reply of your question ... im up for 2 years FOSHOO BROO! ANYTIMEEE Yall ! HEHEHE and lastly thanks for the whole bf/bf thingo ! [ you noe wad i mean lah] so.. BFFL yea yea?*Judy* Ehh girll thanks for you AWESOME AS CARD ! EVen though this doesn't happen in the book of TIN TIN ... [who caresss] TINTIN LOVES SNOWY HIS [her] FAV MOST FAITHFUL COMPANION TILL THE ENDD! WOOHOOOO =]<3333333 p.s. Snowy is on my bed now =] WInk wink*
*jess* EHH girll=] man the sleepover was the BESTTT and THANK YOU for the awesome fireworks !!! and the cake !!! [why dont u go be a baker?HEHHE ] we Have to do another sleepover K!
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ok i needa go now =___= i've officially spent 2 hours on blogging ... [NOTE TO SELF* NOT GOOD] T__T
7.7.08
Devotion and reflection...
"Loving God means obeying his commands. And God'scommands are not too hard for us,"
" because everyone who is a child of God conquers the world.
And this is the victory that conquers the world - Our faith"
1 John 5:3-4
LIFE should never be too hard for us unless we disobey god i guess. If you look back and realize that your life hasn't really been all that smooth then maybe something is wrong with your lifestyle. Review it and figure out what has been wrong. Usually its the sins that give you all the pleasure in the world for a split second before you come crashing down into a ditch. Make a list of the things that you have chosen to do that were wrong...for me...i could probably come up with a MILLION things on my list. Well all i can say is that it sure is hard to resist temptations but with this verse, i'm sure that if i trust in the lord he will not let temptation overcome me! and thats the power of his unconditional great love for us.
ALRITEEYY Noww time for my highlights of today!
I ACCOMPLISHED the great mission of the day ! and that was to COMB the whole of DFO and The Basement and any other shops along the way!!!! n my gosh i combed them alritee... just that i ended up with a gazillion and one blisters on my feet! That wasnt as bad... What was bad was running for the friggin bus and POPPING ALL MY BLISTERS +__________________+ OMGOSHHHH they hurt lyk CRAZIEEE.
niweas it was all worth it! i bought 2 tops and a skirt for 10 bucks?? [ well that was coz 1 shirt was a gift from ben ^_^ ] HEHE but hey heyy! pretty good i guess.. 10 bucks for 3 things =] im pretty satisfied i have to say !
AND my mission begins =] 1.30 pm
a FAILed attempt to change style ...
stupid high waist skirt ! >=|
Attempt no. 2 to change style =]
~$10 Jeans skirt ! [BOUGHT]
THe black top came for free with the purchased skirt =]
and the top on the right came from valley girl! 25 bucks=]
hmm so all in all i spent 10 bucks?
now i can officially say
WOHOO! YAYAYAY!
after approximately 5 hours of walking =_=
and blister -rizing both my feet collecting abt 5 blisters?
and popping most of them =__=
But wait... what do we have here? HMM i guess im not the only one who felt the pain on those
poor feet ! [ this is ben trying to walk normal after a failed attempt to con the bubble cup ppl]
Being sooo drained from the day's mission =__= i HAD to buy Mrs fields cookies to regain some energy and give my fuel tank a refill=]
ALrite enough abt the day =] time to go do some workkK!
byee guys!
ALRITEEYY Noww time for my highlights of today!
I ACCOMPLISHED the great mission of the day ! and that was to COMB the whole of DFO and The Basement and any other shops along the way!!!! n my gosh i combed them alritee... just that i ended up with a gazillion and one blisters on my feet! That wasnt as bad... What was bad was running for the friggin bus and POPPING ALL MY BLISTERS +__________________+ OMGOSHHHH they hurt lyk CRAZIEEE.
niweas it was all worth it! i bought 2 tops and a skirt for 10 bucks?? [ well that was coz 1 shirt was a gift from ben ^_^ ] HEHE but hey heyy! pretty good i guess.. 10 bucks for 3 things =] im pretty satisfied i have to say !
AND my mission begins =] 1.30 pm
a FAILed attempt to change style ...
stupid high waist skirt ! >=|
Attempt no. 2 to change style =]
~$10 Jeans skirt ! [BOUGHT]
THe black top came for free with the purchased skirt =]
and the top on the right came from valley girl! 25 bucks=]
hmm so all in all i spent 10 bucks?
now i can officially say
WOHOO! YAYAYAY!
after approximately 5 hours of walking =_=
and blister -rizing both my feet collecting abt 5 blisters?
and popping most of them =__=
But wait... what do we have here? HMM i guess im not the only one who felt the pain on those
poor feet ! [ this is ben trying to walk normal after a failed attempt to con the bubble cup ppl]
Being sooo drained from the day's mission =__= i HAD to buy Mrs fields cookies to regain some energy and give my fuel tank a refill=]
ALrite enough abt the day =] time to go do some workkK!
byee guys!
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