23.10.08

the only reason i am on my blog now is because i have 1 hour to waste =] niweas im pretty tired. Fridays are always long and draggy but its also good that its friday coz theres YOUTH =] WOHOOO! and im always pumped for youth ! YAYYYYY
niweas i just off the phone with a lovable pooface =P and because i was screaming at the top of my lungs, my head kinda hurts abit.. just abit >____<
Oh dear i just realized that my exams are coming soon.... thats right... study. i should be studying now. whoops? =P hehehe oh wells i need a breakk. I have decided that after the exams im going to go crazy and go to unitdstylez like every 2nd day and enjoyyyy my arse offff =] thats the only reason im studying so hardddd so that i can tell myself i deserve a reward and treat myself to unitdstylez! hehehhee

OOOO song of the day for me is MISS INDEPENDENT!
CHRIS BROWN IS SUCH AN AWESOME ARTIST I LOVE HIM!
HIS SONGS MAKE ME GO HIGH ! HEHEHE

alriteeeee thats it for nowwwww.

18.10.08

Its a quiet sunday and im stuck at home. My house is filled with a scary type of silence that usually doesnt come about. My dads out somewhere and mums cooking lunch at this hour...(2pm) yep.
She's not talking and neither is he. Whats wrong i ask? but no one replies. Im scared because i rather hear some shouting then allow silence to fill the house.
And finally i realize that we're at the last stage of a freakishly familiar continuous dreadful cycle.
He comes back, things are great... untill he's just about to go back... something will happen... usually a fight... the only variable in this cycle is "with whom?" he'll have a fight with.
Maybe its just part of him that feels the need to let out his frustrations all in one shot.
Or maybe its just the thought of having to go away that leaves him in a bad irritable mood.
I need some fresh air. I need to study but i cant concentrate. I'm famished but i'm about to loose my appetite.
To me this is only a house not a home. Its made of wood and concrete and all sorts of material. It has a shelter under which i have a comfortable place to sleep. But sometimes i wonder if thats all it is. A house.

11.10.08

Sabbath day =P

I attended planet shakers church in the morning and man i was really inspired and i really loved the worship there coz its just so strong. Although there was no sermon, the 2 hours went by so quickly and before i knew it, the service had finished ! that was how good it was.

After the service, bryan and i went to maccas to get lunch and waited for my parents to come pick us up since it was 28 degrees outside T__T [ and damn it still is...] Parents took a detour to victoria market and brought bryan along as well since he hasnt been there. Got some of the FAMOUS American Jam doughnuts [ mmmm very satisfying] whilst shopping for my parent's stuff.

Yep and thats been my day so far. Niweas I should go and do some work... Just realised that tomorrow is MONDAY T___T start of another week. damn it.

10.10.08

Oh noo! im back here again! i think i am developing an addiction for blogging 0.0

damn it. truth is im just running away from my accounting work thats waiting for me on the other side of the table! *glares at the book n hides behind computer screen*
i cant help it, its making me fall asleep. Tried doing one question but iFAILED miserably... not even 1 QUESTION T_T yup. Thats my saturday and its gone, just like that. what a waste eh? Well not really considering that i spent the earlier half of the day on the computer youtubing and blogging n i duno what else.. ?=D And the afternoon hours sitting in the sun [pretending to be] working on some accounting questions.... ok it was a waste of time.

Oh yeh that reminds me now! i wanted to blog about this lady at the dim sum place - taipan.

Waitress: halo. wan anymo dum-pings? 'Pok' 'Dumpings', 'chicken' 'dumpings', 'porn' 'dumpings'
... 'dumpings?' ... hmm as in dumping- poop? ...wait a minute OH I GET IT NOW... T___T
its ANYMORE - PORK DUMPLINGS , chicken DUMPLINGS, PRAWN dumplings...
Lol yep. that was it.
'Sometimes when we touch'
-Dan Hill-

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

That song isss sooo awesome that its been stuck in my head since the start of this week! =] i love it! So OLD but so GOOD
It makes me think about alot of things and i guess the lyrics really got to me >__<

its 10.45 am now and im meant to be doing my accounting revision =] Considering the fact that my accoutning exam is just round the corner... i suspect my brain has not registered that yet since im totally not stressing or freaking out about it or else i would studying right this moment- not blogging.
Whats the term for this thing again? oh yeh procrastination and lack of motivation ! Maybe its coz im too happy today for some reason. Hmmmm i wonder what im happy about. niweas im off to do some other 'less waste of time' things =] as dad always tells me to
be bak tonite with more of the latest news
Well todays a little different. Something happened and i feel so good now its totally unbelievable.

About my previous post, how humans were so complicated that half the time they dont speak my mind. Well guess who did today. Me !
After it all happened, I felt as if someone had come and lifted the 1098765432 kg load of my shoulders. To me this was the first time i've ever told someone the most deepest most innest thoughts and feelings with utmost honesty.
I don't mean that i lie half the time, what I mean is that during D&Ms ppl would talk out their thoughts and feelings yeh sure.. but those would have only probably been the surface or only half way in. Its completely natural since sometimes saying certain things without considering the outcome of it, could accidentally hurt someone and most of the time people hold back. Sometimes I dont want to admit something because i feel ashamed or shy about it but this time i took up the courage and said it out. Something i've never admitted to anyone before, in my entire life. Gosh i Felt so relieved.
I just feel so good now that all my stress and frustrations have turned into happiness and happy thoughts. I really want to thank god that he provided me the companion to tell it to and the courage to say it. Thanks ben <3 for ur understanding and Boy does it feel good. [and im sorry too... once again i guess since i've said it just now]

Niweas im off to watch Eight under now. LOVE THE DOGS! THEIR SO ADORABLE I FEEL LIKE CUDDLING A SNOW DOG NOW ![ wait wads that breed of dogs called? ] hmmmm

8.10.08

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find...
This is the song of the week for me and im totally in love with it =]
During the 6 or so.. hours that i was in school, something bugged me for quite awhile.
Why is it that humans [ me and you ] get so complicated at times that for a split second i even had the idea that a robots are better off than us? i mean ROBOTS VS HUMANS ....hmmm that would be interesting to see the world be taken over by an army of robotic or [closer to the human species] Bionic 'people'... but thats not the point. My point is that sometimes i wish that people would learn to just speak whats on their mind. Either say it or dont say it.
theres no in between. At least not for me. And i totally cant stand it when someone argues for the sake of argueing.. i mean if the other person is saying something completely possible, why argue? why say that it is not right when thats only what you think? whats the point of saying 'thats just stupid'. i mean stupid comes across as an insult in times like these. Sometimes it may even hurt the other person's feelings. And who knows.. it might just leave the other person thinking that its just better off not talking in the future. Is that really that hard to accept a different opinion or a different view to certain issues?
Ok dad's back, i should get going soon...
Gee the day doesnt get any better does it? Dad comes home n yells his head of at me. Totally love it when he does that.. NOT. Seriously, anger management issues much? Its not as if i stood there with a sign saying SCOLD ME YAY T__T
ARGHHH i had a tiring day at school, enough to totally wear me out and i SO DO NOT NEED THIS FROM HIM. WHich reminds me... what was the reason that he raged at me [the moment he stepped in] again? Oh yeh... thats right its something called NO REASON I JUST FEEL LIKE IT =___=. Hate it. hate it so much. alright now im going to lock myself up in the room so i dont have to face him or his BIG ISSUE with controlling his temper and the random fits that he just LOVEs to chuck at me.
Im going.
Ok this post is just to let out my frustration and the fact that i am officially in a state of depression... it is certain that my ear hole has closed - AGAIN..-
I cant believe it... this is the 3rd time its closed on me! Why is my ear so freaking sensitive! ARGH The prospect of me having to pierce my ear and go through all that pain once more is totally pleasing. NOT !
Lets see why is that? .. oh yeh thats right coz it hurts like CRAZY! and it has to get infected like 20 billion times before it settles and becomes a normal ear hole...

ARGHHHH ='[

7.10.08

Ohhh dearrr.... not good... im pmsing full on now - worst of all I KNOW IT ! =___=! Its not as if i havent started taking the pre menstrual stress medicine [which by the way are the hugest tablest i've ever seen in my life =___=] i've been provided with --courtesy of my mum so she doesnt have to see me stomp around the house like an angry bull ...
yess thats me... actually that was me just an hour ago. If this makes sense, i HATE getting annoyed but i cant help it ! Especially when its 'the' time of the month T__T gosh someone help meeee. Has all my tablet swallowing gone to waste? i mean those huge primrose oil tablets were like gianormous... give me some credit or at least make me less irritable... actually im even considering increasing my dosage to 2 tablets [ im so going to choke]

Ok mum just interrupted me and told me how expensive my phone bill for the last month was. Lets see... 50 bucks... ehehe...*ouch* $_$ I guess there is one consolation to it though, considering the fact that it had gone down by about 10 bucks from last month! WHEE! I'm so going to get banned from my phone one day... Hopefully not anytime soon so i can keep talking to ben on the phone for the next 18 months...[oh wait.. its 14 months! NOOOO] before he goes to back permanantly for army... =[ Cant wait to see what my phone bill will be like after he leaves... im anticipating round about $0.00 ? since most of my calls are to him and the rest of the minor ones would probably fit into my allowance from my plan, which is [i assume] 20 bucks?
Hopefully this month's phone bill will continue to go down - just like the global market!
WHEE im actually managing to apply economics to my phone bill, not that it makes any sense whatsoever.
Economics is the most BORING subject ever and of course it is the subject in which i dread THE most -Just too much for my puiny little brain to take [thats if i have one haha] To top it off, i'm stuck with economics next year! WOHOO! exciting isnt it? -SO NOT- Somehow my brain went crazy and directed my hand to click on economics when making my subject choices. *notes to self, blame me brain* yepps

OH NO! i just remembered i've got lyk 76543456787654349 exercises of maths i've to catch up on [ which btw have like 976567897678987678976787678 questions per exercise]

btw did i mention that lazy ppl are poops =P
laterzzzz

5.10.08

First day back

=P here i am back with an urge to blog about my 'most' (cough) eventful day of my life !
RETURNING TO SCHOOL =] FIRST DAY BACK! WOHOO! exciting isnt it?
no not really - especially when it consists of having to wake up at 7.30 am (i noe i cant compare to those who wake up at 5am, but still!) and taking a freezing cold shower to wake myself up and be ready for school. ONly to go to school and be caught in the rain! *yay* jumps around T__T-
yep exciting isnt it?
nehh but the good thing was, i was determined to make it a good start! and be pumped for all my subjects =] considering the fact that if i dont do so, the probability of my grades dropping to a C or D or even an F [due to my previous 3 terms of slacking] was 0.9999999 *recurring* =] Yep that was it...
but yeh talking abt school work and grades... a little reminder *to do chinese tuition hw for tmr* just poped up at the back of brain. and yes i will get my head around to attending that issue after i finish blogging =]
Anyways the day was pretty good=P best part of my school day was lunch and recess when yooodii and eunice and i got into some smelling addiction 0.0 (hard to explain) but yeh it was funnn as usual =P the random things we do makes my day=]

Hw for the day:
*URGENT* - Chinese tuition hw [because u have tuition tmr]
- includes: 2 listenings
1 Translation
1 comprehension worksheet (worth 10 pages)
*not so urgents*
-Methods Ex on circular funcs n graphs [ HATE GRAPHING but i'll get to it anyways]
-General Ex on Imaginary and real no.s =P sounds cool eh? not reallyT__T
-Chinese essay on living in my own hse? [what a weird topic]
-Accounting revision for exam + print out 98765432345678 pages of test papers and notes sent to my email ![ yes spam my email why dont u T__T]

Alrite i think i'll stop there ... its scary enough to have to complete all that in such a short period of time... someone HELP MEEEEE!!! SAVE ME!!!
*drops into a stack of hw and dies*

4.10.08

SINGAPORE DAY!

hmmm lets see... how shld i describe today... *thinks hard*
OH THATS RIGHT, the word is AWESOME!
So i woke up at lyk 9 am? dragged my sleepy ass out of my comfy cosy warm bed and yes i actually managed to get to the shower without dropping on the ground n falling asleep =P
Dad suggested to leave house at 10, [as typical sgreans] so that we can "beat the crowd and get a head start compared to everyone else" [ but wait till we get there]
little did we know that there were about 2km worth of sgreans that had the same mentality as us and decided to do the exact same thing ! =]
great isnt it? hahaha anyways we joint the queue at the very end of the 2km long line T__T and waited in the hot morning sun...

-10 mins later-
Dad: "chin, screw this ! this is STUPID! look at the STUPID LINE! its not even MOVING!
i dont wana queue in this crazy line and look STUPID! ITs not worth it lahh. lets just go."
Me: *geez just how much does he love the word STUPID* "well cant we just wait?"
Dad: "neh this is just crazy. im going to see whats going on at the front of the line"
Dad: *walks up to the very front of the line and talks to one of the helpers controlling the queue* "hey! HAlo! eh whats going on!? Why isnt the queue moving har?!"
*i totally cant rmbr what the guy said to dad as i was too busy hiding my face and retreating backwards in embarrassment*

yes anwyays what matters is that i got my arse in there and enjoyed it like crazie =]
i loved the food the atmosphere, it just felt like singapore all over again! even the queing up and the squeezing and the typical sgrean way to get freebies! ahhh felt soo good! i miss singapore so bad!
My fav part .. well actually one of my Favs ... [coz everything was just so good] is the part where i got my photo with ALOYY!!!! [PCK's nephew *in the show*] AHHH I WAs like jumping up and down
AND OH OH! I MUST MENTION MEETING SARAH AND DAWN!!! the awesomest twins ever!!! my highschool buddies! mannn they've changed so much! HOT BABES as far as im concerned =P haha sometimes i wonder what 4 years can do to a person hahaha... seriously if not for joel, i wld have walked RIGHT PAST them and not notice a THING at all... i literally SCREAMED WHEN I SAW THEM! hahaha its just so much to digest, after not seeing them for 4 whole years! You know whats funny... the fact that they migrated to melbourne at the same time as me yet throughout these 4 years we've never met nor COINCIDENTALLY met At all! and of all places SINGAPORE DAY! hahaha man i'm so glad i didnt leave with my parents, or i wldnt have seen them there!
Yesss my parents totally ditched me for coffee with some friends... sad aint it? but oh wells i managed to cut the queue and get all the freebies and free food available =] i basically queued up twice for everything i cld =P hehehe its part of being sgrean! wohoo!

PICTURES SOON TO COME!!!! *tmr* when i get my head around to uploading the photos T___T

2.10.08

opinion on spanking children

alrite this is my opinion on spanking children

Firstly i have to say it is not TOTALLY right or TOTALLY wrong... its in the 'grey' area.
Reason being, whether a child deserves a spanking varies with different conditions,
e.g.
what the child did to deserve a spanking
If the child reacts and learns from spankings? [ i mean if ur the parent you wld know whether ur child responds well to spankings, or if they will just end up hating you in the long run...]
etc...

basically what im trying to get at is that, if the child has committed something that calls for a spanking, give your kid the spanking but just not too hard n not OVERDONE, or you might create more trouble for urself.
it is also good to remember that kids going through puberty [norm aged 12 -16] are mostly rebellious and violence against them may influence the development of a nonviolent resorting character...
i mean we all know that hitting a child will only work up to a certain extend, once that "line" is crossed, thigns just turn bad. Feelings of Hurt, Hate, Anger etc will build up and these feelings are potentially harmful to parent-children relationships, Nevetherless i feel it really comes down to the judgement of the parents.
There is no right or wrong i guess ....

Does that help bryan??? i duno i was just typing whateva came to my mind lol but yeh =P