Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didnt ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing Id do, is pray for time to crawl
Then Id unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
Id hold you every second
Say a million I love yous
Thats what Id do, with one more day with you

Last night was a pretty good night. Instead of going to one of my family friend's house, i stayed home and spent some real quality time with my mum. We baked and sung and danced in the kitchen. That was one hell of a time. And out of the blue i juz realised, how time flies with age. It was only yesterday that i was holding her hand wherever i went. Now my wings are taking me further and further away from that day. I grew up and she grew older. The wrinkles and white strands of hair appearing randomly on her head are hints that she's beginning the race against time like everyone else of her age. Even though i do wonder what i'll look like when i get to her age, i have a gut feeling i'll be an exact duplicate of her coz we are juz so alike in our habits, our thoughts, our characters and our aim in life etc. I juz love her so much =] even though she can be annoying sometimes... maybe even 24/7 Hehehe =P

alrite... Moving on!
Today started out greattt =] i woke up at 9.30 and did the usual getting ready makeup etc, and went to church. Was on worship today and i guess aunty susan's message to us (the worship team) during our devotional time before service, was really encouraging. She told us to trust in the lord in everything coz he loves us and will be with us if we give the worship up to him. So i guess we did pretty well for worship and that was the only good thing today i guess.

If you want u can take a guess at the title of this song =P

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Niweas i have came to the conclusion that SALT AND SATURATED FAT LEAD U TO THE MOST UNPLEASANT TIMELY DEATH! after watching the most GRUESOME disgusting )(*&^%$#@!@#$% program... of which a 25 stone man is DISSECTED by a team of experts.. *faints*
Looking at all that fat in the man's tummy, the thickness of it when it was cut up ... honestly it was no different to that of a pork belly! ok those of you who like pork belly, you're gonna hate me for this but its true! And worst of all his diaphragm was in the most ABSURD place anyone would have even imagined... it was in line with his nipples! zomgoshhh ...
But WAIT! theres more....
DUE to the movement of his diaphragm all the way up there... his organs have been squashed all the way up there too. his lungs were pretty much at the bottom of his neck, his heart was filled with white fatty tissues and was twice the avg size a heart shld be. His lungs were much smaller than a normal lung and his liver and kidneys were all lost in the LAYERS OF FAT SURROUNDING HIS ORGANS!!!!!!!! SHld i keep going? Hmm mayb not, i think i'll juz make sure i tell the last part. Well the expert who dissected this 25 stone [140+ kg] man, considered this man to have died because of heart failure [ lol no surprise there!] and concluded that the man pretty much " Ate himself to death " ....

Oh nooo schools on tmr !!!!!!!>____<
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*FAINTS*

Is it really worth it to give your love to someone who doesnt even give a shit all abt you? Hmmm lemme think.... i thinkNOT ... So what if you used to be best friends or shared all your secrets or were like sisters? what matters now is that was history and you doing all that for her is just wasting your own time, tears, effort and energy. Save your own energy otherwise soon you'll end up in a dead knot and feel totally wasted. Coz truth is... no matter how much you wish its not true... people like her are never gonna change. They hold grudges, store hatred and have no love. They only think about themselves, everything should revolve around them and they'll never give in during a fight. They always think their right, their never in the wrong. They refuse to say sorry and always blame somebody else for their mistakes. Would it really be of any use to hope that she will change? i doubt so. Its easy to say, why doesn't god do anything about it? Honestly, even i dont know the answer to that question too. Maybe he has a plan? Maybe its test of faith? but whatever it is i cant hold on any longer, i'm losing it already.

1st day at grill'd

damn righttt its my first day of my new job=] started off at 12 and made a few mistakes but since i have an awesome brain [cough] i managed to get a hang of the whole working at the till and the touch screen register thingo [well at least i think so]
*note to liz* when u saw me dropping everything on the floor=___= i wasnt a master of the register YET so yehh... it was only awhile after u left that i stopped making mistakes!
alrite so here was the highlight of my work ... i got scolded by some cranky picky as lady!

xc: HI HOW CAN I HELP U TODAY?
lady: YEs give me.. @#$%^&*%$@% etc...
xc: alrite that will be 11.50 thanx
lady: *gives 20 bucks and 50 cent coin*
xc: [being new at the till] keyed in the wrong amount received. instead of keying in 20.50 i keyed in 20 bucks =__=
xc: hey im sorry i keyed in 20 bucks so *tried to give back the 50 cent coin*
lady: WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE? CANT U JUZ GIVE ME 10 BUCKS CHANGE! DID U DO YEAR 12 MATHS !???
xc: [note to self* >=| GRRRRRR IMMA KICK UR ASS MISSY] actually dw abt it! sorry abt that !
lady: GEEZ

thinks* SCREW U LADY! IM A YEAR 11 alrite... n plus IF U HAD ANY KNOWLEDGE YEAR 12 MATHS DOESNT CONSIST OF 20 - 9.50 and knowing how to operate the stooopid tills! *GRRR

but anyways !!! apart from that 1 moment! EVERYTHING ELSE WAS AWESOME!! I LOVED TH joB! BUT IM totally RUN OUT AND TIREDDD!!!! my LEGS are lyk gonna snap in half!
=] SOMEONE DONATE ME A PAIR OF CARVES =] THXOK BYE =]

THANK YOU ALL FOR THE WONDERFUL WISHES AND BIRTHDAY CARDS AND GIFTS AND REMEMBERING MY BIRTHDAY !=] Ben Jess Eunice Judy Liz Lina tanya and you guys know who you areeee lah=] HEHE <33
Alrite well before i begin my reflection on the past 16 years? wait 15? [shhs I CAN COUNT] of my life... let me just warn u, its gonna be a long one, so if ur not ready to sit tight then close this page right now =]

Anyways.. on with it ! In the last 16 years, i've been through the typical teenage years of rebellion and now i can definitely say that boyy am i glad that its almost over! Honestly, i cant rmbr when i learnt how to tell lies or when i learnt how to fight back and speak my mind, or when i started to drift away from this family. But i one thing for sure was that this begun not that long ago, probably during my recent years in Melbourne i guess... Coming here was this huge step that we as a family had to take together. But living here was a whole different story. Throughout those times, there were those real good times where i felt like i was standing at the peak of the highest mountain ever, and also those bad times where life felt like i was on this downward spiral that ended in this massive ditch [ like those quick sands] which would suck you in faster the more you struggled.
And recently i lost the one thing i found when i came here and that was this amazing faith in God . I lost it because i gave in to anger and rage and lost a relationship that meant the world to me. So why couldn't sorry do the trick? well heres how it works, i figured that some things in life can't be mended with just a word of "sorry", somethings.. like a broken heart or a disagreement that turned into feud and hatred... And now that i look back, all i can say is [with regret] that i wished none of it had happened. i wished i hadn't lost my temper and i wish i hadn't lost control of my rationality and i wish i hadn't used those bad words on you. I was so foolish as to unconsciously blame God for all the wrongs in my life but now i thank god, that through these difficult times i learnt to really listen to his word and search for him. I learnt that only through prayer, the impossible becomes possible. And of course i couldnt have done this without the encouragement and support from my a few special ppl. In particular, Ben and Eunice for the ENDLESS support and encouragement that they gave me. I love you guys to bits and pieces<3 Even though the other things i have gained along the way will never replace the relationship [ i lost] that i screwed up, you learn to look on the bright side to everything and just live with hope and learn that not everything in life will do your way... most importantly i learn't the true meaning that God has a reason for EVERYTHING.

Well today something strange happened. In the morning i read my devotion book as usual, and the message was to encourage one another in faith and so coincidentally i received encouragement from the one person who knew me inside out =] and that was "youuu" [Ben.H] ! I gotta say you picked the right verse [whether by accident or not] i wont forget that verse from Deuteronomy especially in times when i find it hard to cope=] Btw man i gotta say im pretty impressed even though the my eyes went blind from reading your hand writing! [i couldnt read a few words... ok maybe a paragraph HAHA jks jks] BUT i could tell it was really from your heart and i appreciate that. I'll be sure to make FULL use of the 24 /7 service and just in reply of your question ... im up for 2 years FOSHOO BROO! ANYTIMEEE Yall ! HEHEHE and lastly thanks for the whole bf/bf thingo ! [ you noe wad i mean lah] so.. BFFL yea yea?





*Judy* Ehh girll thanks for you AWESOME AS CARD ! EVen though this doesn't happen in the book of TIN TIN ... [who caresss] TINTIN LOVES SNOWY HIS [her] FAV MOST FAITHFUL COMPANION TILL THE ENDD! WOOHOOOO =]<3333333 p.s. Snowy is on my bed now =] WInk wink*

*jess* EHH girll=] man the sleepover was the BESTTT and THANK YOU for the awesome fireworks !!! and the cake !!! [why dont u go be a baker?HEHHE ] we Have to do another sleepover K!
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ok i needa go now =___= i've officially spent 2 hours on blogging ... [NOTE TO SELF* NOT GOOD] T__T

Devotion and reflection...

"Loving God means obeying his commands. And God's
commands are not too hard for us,"
" because everyone who is a child of God conquers the world.
And this is the victory that conquers the world - Our faith"

1 John 5:3-4

LIFE should never be too hard for us unless we disobey god i guess. If you look back and realize that your life hasn't really been all that smooth then maybe something is wrong with your lifestyle. Review it and figure out what has been wrong. Usually its the sins that give you all the pleasure in the world for a split second before you come crashing down into a ditch. Make a list of the things that you have chosen to do that were wrong...for me...i could probably come up with a MILLION things on my list. Well all i can say is that it sure is hard to resist temptations but with this verse, i'm sure that if i trust in the lord he will not let temptation overcome me! and thats the power of his unconditional great love for us.


ALRITEEYY Noww time for my highlights of today!
I ACCOMPLISHED the great mission of the day ! and that was to COMB the whole of DFO and The Basement and any other shops along the way!!!! n my gosh i combed them alritee... just that i ended up with a gazillion and one blisters on my feet! That wasnt as bad... What was bad was running for the friggin bus and POPPING ALL MY BLISTERS +__________________+ OMGOSHHHH they hurt lyk CRAZIEEE.
niweas it was all worth it! i bought 2 tops and a skirt for 10 bucks?? [ well that was coz 1 shirt was a gift from ben ^_^ ] HEHE but hey heyy! pretty good i guess.. 10 bucks for 3 things =] im pretty satisfied i have to say !


AND my mission begins =] 1.30 pm









a FAILed attempt to change style ...
stupid high waist skirt ! >=|








Attempt no. 2 to change style =]
~$10 Jeans skirt ! [BOUGHT]








THe black top came for free with the purchased skirt =]

and the top on the right came from valley girl! 25 bucks=]






hmm so all in all i spent 10 bucks?








now i can officially say


















WOHOO! YAYAYAY!
after approximately 5 hours of walking =_=
and blister -rizing both my feet collecting abt 5 blisters?
and popping most of them =__=












But wait... what do we have here? HMM i guess im not the only one who felt the pain on those
poor feet ! [ this is ben trying to walk normal after a failed attempt to con the bubble cup ppl]













Being sooo drained from the day's mission =__= i HAD to buy Mrs fields cookies to regain some energy and give my fuel tank a refill=]













ALrite enough abt the day =] time to go do some workkK!
byee guys!

Pics from sleepover !!!!!!!!!!!!!

ever wondered if its real coincidence, or did god plan it that way? so happens that todays message from pastor Ray was abt the devotional life of christ. And this is somewhat of a coincidence or shall i say plan by god since i'm currently struggling with my daily devotion. To me time is never enough... sometimes i even wished that there preferably 36 hours in a day? but helloooo reality check! we only have 24 hours in a day... gee come to think of it, thats really really little.
So heres how it goes, 9 hours for sleeping [ standard ] + 5 hours for eating shitting showering n those stuff + 6 hours for school + 2 hours for travelling + 2 hours of ???? devotion?? hmmm why not? but how is it that somehow we will always find something to fill up those 2 hours of our "left over" time? In my case ... it wld be more lyk 2 hours for TV and MSN =___= so after hearing abt the GREAT DEVOTIONAL LIFE CHRIST had ... i was totally guilty! but lucky for me he is a forgiving god =] so i have officially decided to do something [ i duno wad yett] with my HORRIBLY PACKED life style and commit sometime every morning to god=] before i do ANYTHING else !

alrite now im gonna go on facebook cya laterzzz

Birthday celebration =]

i hav came to the conclusion that i need more sleepovers =] they are times when u juz get to sit down with ur girlies n have a heart to heart ! whether it is chucking pillows at each other or rolling of the bed onto one another or climbing on top of each other... this indeed is the best time to bond. Hmm i guess up till now i havent actually realised how important it is to bond with ur girlies, because only then u'll see who they really are and slowly u'll start to see how they will play apart in ur life in the future. be it strong influence on ur actions or choices or character development, i guess they are the ones that quite often are left unnoticed till something goes wrong in ur life and u need a place to hide.
Let me tell you now that friendships are EXACTLY like relationships, the ups and downs, the love and care b/n 2 parties, the mutual agreement [usually unspoken of] to commit and to always be there for one another.... if one looks close enough, they are almost identical excluding the whole boy~girl attraction thingy. So treasure ur best friend as if u've fallen in love with her. Give her the amount of care, concern, love and availability as u would to a boy ur in love with. Treat her with respect and believe in her no matter what bad things u mite hear. Last of all, rmbr to do things that could constantly remind her of how much she means to u and how much u love her... And with all these, u'll find that someone who'll do exactly the same thing juz for u...

Niweasss ytd nite was a great nite n i loved it!
thanx jess for the sparkles and the fireworks and THE CAKE [gw for ur first attempt]!!!! WOOT =] it was yummy !!!
and thank you tanya and liz and everyone who came to my party =]

but most of all i wana say that ben thx for drawing DIM SIM on my cup and putting "ur butt" on my phone's wallpaper Lol!=_____= hehehe jks jks juz wana say dat u mean alot to me ! and thx for comin ytd nite!! ILY<33

alritee thats it for now !
time to continue cleaning up my room !!!!
cya guys!

*this blog was a request by ***
LONG LONG TIME AGOOO =]

BEN IN YEAR 7

BEN IN YEAR 8

... SOON HE WENT FOR AN EXTREME MAKEOVER...
HE magically made those glasses dissappear
and that geeky look was goneee
=] and along came... DADDY DJ!

BEN IN YEAR 9

he was into bananas....0.o?

BEN IN YEAR 10

his natural pose LOL

UNFORTUNATELY... he is currently OVERLY OBSESSED WITH HIMSELF !!!!

THE ENDDD =]

BEN IS A POOP =] AND HE IS GAY COZ HE LIKES PINK ! N SERIOUSLY WHO SAYS ZO MY GOSH +___+ IT JUZ AINT RIGHT

glorious returnnn =]

well wad can i say... the thought of blogging hadnt cross my mind in quite sometime.. ok so maybe i forgot i had a blog.... till someone reminded me ~ but HEy i've been busy nerding the whole time that i havent been blogging for...
so this was wad happened during my unexplained period of absence on my blog =] I had exams
1 week of preperation + 2 weeks of exams + 1 week of sleeping n bumming around to de-stress = 4 weeks of forgetting i had a blog =]

the past few days has been quite hectic....
friday nite = amy and neil's engagement party
saturday = worship practice
Sunday = church and went shopping with mum at ALdi =]
Monday = had dance practice from 11 -2 then came home to rush out sum chink hw >__T
Tuesday = dancing practice 10 - 11 something?
worship practice 11 sumthin - 1
chinese tuition 3-4
Met ben at shoppo 4 till 6 something =]
Wed [ today] = went to ct at 10 plus came back at 6 somethingg ~~~ what a cold n tiring day i must sayyy.... its the result of getting minimal hours of sleep last nite...

HMMM OH AND I DID I MENTION?? I THINK I GOT A Job! Im waiting for the guy to call me back!! hoping and praying he'll call me tmr n tell me which days to go in for training!!! Hhehehe im pretty excited and hyped abt it ! it'll be my first job! =] WOOT
niweas i got a couple more things to be excited for =] e.g. fridayyyy! im having a party at my hse n its gonna be a heap of funnN going high! *winks at jess [u noe wad im referring to]=P*
and monday i'll be going for my FIRST SLEEPOVER AND teusday is my BIRTHDAY!!!

ps bryan is an idiotttt he called me today to tell me happy birthday from msia LOL! funni dude! BLUR SOTONG! hope u enjoying the heatttt in msia! =]