WOHOO finally back on track after abt a week of un-bloggering =D
well i guess i have a valid reason for doing so>< been too cramped up ! lets see what i had... hmm... within the last 2 weeks i have had 4 outcomes n a TONNE of HW !!!
there it is. a valid reason indeed.

i look everywhere but i cant find a road. i look for a glimpse of light but all i see is darkness.
i feel so lost not knowing what i want or where i want to go in life. i ask but i don't hear. Maybe i'm not listening close enough? Maybe i'm not doing something right? who can tell me? who can understand the gazillion and one things going through my mind with each passing minute...

Finally back on this blog which has been deserted for lyk almost a week by now =___=
cant help it ... was too busy doing stuff=__= spent the whole freaking saturday doign some chinese oral presentation! dont ask me but i have NO idea since when did i become such a workaholic !!
anyways i'll juz blog about today =D
yehh well after school i saw the CUTEST DOG EVER!!!!!
its a maltese X shitzu BABY!!!! My goshhh the way it ran n jump n pounced on the teddy bear that had bite marks all over it !!! its juz >_______< AHHH!! hahah she was soo cute! TIFFANYYY was her name ! man the grass was lyk even TALLER THAN HER ! HAHAHA SO CUTE !

Well here i am back on my blog rattling on about something that has happened which somehow i cant seem to comprehend....
Sitting on that cold plastic chair, my arse freezing from wearing a winter skirt.. hands so cold it looks pale white... something inside begins to churn... traveling down from the mind to the heart to the stomach and intestines.. its fear.. its nervousness... the studying i did the previous couple of days all came down to this... i blanked out.
Looking back on it now... the paper wasn't even a difficult paper... i was just too nervous and couldn't even think properly. That feeling is just so terrible and i still cannot believe i totally screwed it up! How could i do that? I didn't even think i would feel so nervous that i could blank out on the last minute! i feel so wasted! but sigh* what can i do? its over. I cant go back in time and calm myself down =__= All i can do is indulge in a bottle of nutella and convince myself i won't do it again.. as well as lie to myself that Really... it doesn't matter that much...
But i thank U JOODIIEE- My faithful companion- Snowy- for letting me complain about my failure for the whole recess =D hahaha And of course Eunice =D haha wen u came bac from ur inspection ahaha

i havent blog for so longgg HMMM feels weird now that i'm finally back on track >___< its lyk GUY TALK.... * n then xc slides into background n pretends to blend in with the brown wall* SIGHH LIZZZZZZZZZ I NEEDED U THERE!!! THEY WERE ON ABT EVERYTHING I SHOULDN'T HAVE HEARD LOL! OH WELLS =____= hahaha HOpefully bryan liked his MR NONSENSE BOOK!!!! HEHE ^____^

OK I ADMIT !!! IM GUILTY!!!! guilty for the past 1 week coz i havent really been doing much homework.. so im currently lacking behind in methods n accounting! WHICH IS BADDD! but i really cant find the motivation to do anything... [ blame it on the weather!!! its the weather's fault!!!] =____= fortunately, however, i caught up with general in the last few hours n so im not lacking behind by 09876543234567 chapters now [YAY!!!!] =D which is the ONLY gd news for me so far =__= coz apart from that ... im really .. pretty much juz slogging n dragging behind!
n my room which was made extremely neat juz couple of weeks ago .... doesnt seem so neat anymore... in addition, my wardrobe... has been reduced to the depressing state of looking lyk a garbage truck once again... [though thankfully it doesnt smell lyk one]
Oh well... hopefully ONE DAY .... i wld be bothered to catch up on my work n tidy up this hopelessly messy room[ n maybe KEEP IT NEAT] =___=
right now... i juz really feel lyk sleeping, which is weird coz i've been sleeping non stop n im still tired !! O.O anyways time to jump into my cozy warm double-mattress bed !

laterz

right now i'm in the middle of my dinner... but what am i doing on my blog? Its so disappointing to get rejected. worst of all twice in a day! Really its not much of a dinner because even though i tried my best to make a nice meal and be her company, it didnt make a difference. i should have just minded my own business n prevent this disappointment. but anyway... I sat here for 20 mins eating and listening to her gossip over the phone and pass judgments on another of my relatives. seriously... i hate to even hear my parents pass judgements on ppl they know nothing of, but yet think they noe everything! why do they try and act all smart as if they have known that person their WHOLE life... and deserve the right to judge them based on what they look or what they see with their naked eyes! And the only reason they give, is that they've lived more years than i have and can see what i can't ! .. so what? suree... in some cases they may be right! but they tend to pass judgments on EVERYTHING EVERYONE and ANYONE! ... hate it.. i hate hearing even a word of it! can't stand it anymore! why cant they just do it behind my back and not say in in my face! WHY is it that i am always in the wrong place at the wrong time! arghhhhhh

WHEEE!!! the BHS formal izz comingggg =D n sooo i had to try out my dresses n camwhore for abit =D

ALrite soooo which one do i wear?!?!?!?


lets try it onnn...
DRESS NUMBER 1



















DRESS NUMBER 2...





















[cbs trying on the other 2 lol so i'll leave it with these 2]

sooo which one??? HELPPPPPP >____________< !

HEHEHE